Our Delayed Dreams (Dream Series #1)

Chapter 7

Chapter 7: not my story to tell

Ilang araw na rin ang nakalilipas simula noong huli kong nakita si Axel. Pati na rin ang mga kaibigan ko. Hindi ako lumabas ng bahay gaano dahil nagaaral ako.

Kailangan ko na rin ayusin dahil nga huling taon ko nalang ng med school. Katapos noon ay residency na 'ko. Kagigising ko lang at katatapos ko lang maligo when I checked my phone.

I was scrolling through some articles when I came across one article that caught my attention. It's an article about a singer. A singer that was close to my heart but not also mine but also with my friends. Especially Lana.

It's Kaiser, It's not my story to tell, so I won't really go into much details about him. He's having his own concert. Crazy how he also has reached his dreams already.

Ako nalang ata ang naiwan pagdating sa pag-abot ng pangarap. Wala, ee, ganito siguro talaga kapalaran ko. I have no other choice but to accept everything.

Sikat na sikat na rin siya ngayon, grabe dati pinapangarap niya lang 'yan na makapag-perform siya sa harap ng maraming tao. Ngayon abot kamay niya na. Chloe asked me the other day if I regret meeting Axel, if I regretted that I allowed him to enter my life.

My answer was no. No, I did not regret a single thing. I'm glad that he did entered my life because without him maybe I wouldn't really learn all these lessons in life. He was once my happiness, he was once my source of inspiration so I did not regret anything. Because even just for once, he was the reason why I continued dreaming. Even though his departure was the reason why they were delayed.

Malapit na ang pasko, unang pasko ko rito sa Pilipinas simula noong nagsimula akong mag-aral sa NY. I won't lie, I miss my family so much. I remember celebrating Christmas with Lana back then. By those times I was hurt and was in pain.

Now that I'm celebrating Christmas again with my family after three years, I feel genuinely happy. But of course there's still a part of me that's in pain. You can't just take away pain that fast. Even though I can say I had recovered already, there's still pain that's evident in me every time I see him.

I shook all my thoughts away, ayaw ko nalang isipin lahat. Ayaw kong ikulong sa kalungkutan ang sarili ko. Siguro kahit ngayon lang, maramdaman ko naman sanang maging masaya. I just don't want the pain to take over me at this point of time.

Suddenly someone knocked at my door. "Kila?" It's my mom!!

"Mommy!!" I got excited seeing her. I ran towards her and I hugged her as tight as I can and genuinely smiled at her.

"How are you my beautiful daughter?" She asked while caressing my hair. I smiled at her before talking. "I'm not fine, but I am now! Because you're here!!" I excitedly said to her.

"Do you really miss me that much?" She asked as if she was doubting what I said to her. I pouted at her. "Mommy, do I look like I'm lying??"

"No, anak," she chuckled. "Ma, sobrang mahal na mahal kita, salamat." I said out of nowhere.

"Mommy loves you too, anak. Baba na tayo nag-almusal ka na ba?" Tanong niya habang naglalakad kami papunta sa hagdanan. Umiling lang ako na parang bata sakanya na siyang ikinatawa niya.