The King's Alpha Queen

Ch4.

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They were right behind me, watching my every movement. They knew I knew but made no intent to get closer to me. I walked around pretending their presence didn't bother me one bit. It was getting dark now, rain soon to fall. My best guess was that they weren't trying to capture me.

The stores were packed with people, the streets admired by them too. I would soon need to lose these guys behind me if I  wanted to go back home. I doubted David would use my house as a home. He had his own house. Why would he live in my house? The rain started pouring down to which made it easier for me to disappear. With the rain, they would for surely lose my scent.

My house wasn't precisely in San Francisco. It was in the outskirts of it. I turned to look behind me as I walked up the road, positive there was no one behind. Positive I had lost them all. A sigh escaped my lips as I came before the main gate of my house. The lights were all off, no car in front of the house. I listened closely for any noise coming from inside the house, muting everything around me. I started climbing the fence to get to the other side since the electronic gates only opened from inside.

I had locked all the main doors so the only way getting in was to brake a window or something. The less noticeable place to get in was through the small window in the kitchen. Once in, I didn't hesitate to run over to the fridge and grab some food. I couldn't risk turning on the lights since I didn't want to give my hiding spot away. I could perfectly see in the dark, no problem whatsoever. I sat on the kitchen's table, gulping down the can of soda in my hand...

I decided to take a nice hot shower after finishing mostly all the food in the kitchen. It felt great being back at my house, my own room. The only thing I feared was how was I going to clean the wounds on my back and arm. I hated touching or curing anything. It gave me the creeps. I hadn't even noticed my purplish color on my neck and waist. It almost looked like if I was wearing a collar. I had bags under my eyes, my face with pale color. The stiffness on my shoulder was not helping a single bit.

Sitting on my bed wearing my red long kimono, I thought what I would do next. Obviously I had no support from even at least one pack member. I couldn't make them become under my rule again, not since probably David had power of an Alpha. Why was I so stupid? I had to have seen that coming somehow. I knew nothing. Nothing. Not about the past nor knowing the outcome of my terrible actions.

"Stupid. Stupid."

I hit the sides of my head with my fists.

"What will you do now?" My wolf quietly asked.

I shook my head, already fearing my response.

"Don't know. I don't know."

"Do you... You regret being what you are?"

"Without being what I am, I wouldn't of been able to give my family this type of life. We wouldn't of had this house, the money. We would still be living in that old apartment, trying to survive life!"

"Your life isn't looking that great right now no matter how you look at it."

"You must be glad you aren't suffering."

She started growling now.

"Why must you think I am not suffering? What makes you think I'm not? You are me. I am you. I'm not a different being, I am you."