The Moment I Knew | On-Going

CHAPTER 23

Pakiramdam ko naiumpog ko ang ulo ko sa matigas na pader. Napangiwi ako nang buksan ko ang mga mata ko at naramdaman ko kaagad ang sakit ng ulo ko.

But then again, I don't want to be like this. As much as I wanted to cry again, I need to regain myself and be in composure.

I inhaled and exhaled, up until now, I feel like I'm still calming myself.

"Kamusta?"

Napadilat ako agad at napalingon sa taong nagsalita. I didn't expect to see him. He was standing in front of me with his arms crossed.

Mukhang nahalata niyang nagulat ako na makita siyang nandito kaya naman nagsalita siya. "Nakatulog ka kanina habang umiiyak. Dinala kita rito sa clinic para makapagpahinga."

I nodded at him. He don't have to do that.

I scanned the place and found out that we were the only ones here. "Nasaan si Julia?" tanong ko sa kanya.

I was surprised nang lumapit siya sa akin at naupo sa kamang kinaroroonan ko. "Mas gusto mo bang siya ang kasama kumpara sa akin?"

Natigilan ako sa tanong niya. What kind of question is that? I am aware that he completely knows that I prefer him to accompany me over Julia but...I know...hindi ko dapat sanayin ang sarili ko na kasama siya. Alam kong kailangan kong umiwas...hindi dahil sa na-reject na ako ni Sebastian, but rather, it's the right thing to do.

I saw him sighed. "Umuwi na siya. May importante kasi siyang aasikasuhin sa bahay nila since magbabakasyon sila sa probinsya pagka-sembreak."

Tumango ako noon at iniabot ang phone kong nasa side table. May isang text message roon na galing kay Julia. I opened it and read her message.

Hey Diana, sorry. Di na kita masasamahan. Pinapauwi na kasi ako but Ian was there to keep you company. Bawi ako sa susunod. Sorry talaga. I hope you're okay na.

I silently took a deep breath. Bakit ako ang sinamahan ni Sebastian instead na si Julia? Then, it dawned on me. Maybe, Julia requested him to stay here and accompany me. Kasi kung si Sebastian lang naman ang magdedecide, paniguradong ibibilin nalang nila ako sa nurse na naririto.

I sighed and turned to face Sebastian that currently staring at me as if he was assessing. I fought the blush that might come on my face. I was not really used to his stares.

"Bakit? Mas gusto mo bang ako ang kasama kumpara kay Julia?" I joked and crossed my arms.

I saw how he was taken aback. Napangiti nalang ako. I'm not really good at joke. I think I must take it back before I make this situation awkward. Just as I thought Sebastian will answer my question, he just stared at me. Moments later, he averted his gaze.

I knew it. Maybe he doesn't want to answer that because his response will just hurt me. It's fine though. He doesn't really have to answer it. Alam ko na rin naman ang sagot.

"I suggest you shouldn't treat me like this. You already told me that I should not hope for more, isn't it?" I uttered.

"Oo," tango niya, and he stared at me. "But it doesn't mean I shouldn't care."

This time, I was taken aback. Does he care for me? I thought he doesn't want anything to do with me?

I shooked my head. I shouldn't really think about if he cares or not. At the end of the day, wala rin namang mangyayari. He's inlove with someone else.