The Moment I Knew | On-Going

CHAPTER 17

I tiptoe, making sure I wasn't creating any sound. I checked their room, they're not there. Probably, they are in the study room. Most of the time, they stayed there, working their asses off.

I keep reminding myself that I shouldn't really bother myself with this union thing, but this thing really pestering my sleeps. I've been thinking it for days!

Even people around me notice that I was not in my usual self. Napapatulala nalang kasi ako kapag bigla bigla nalang iyon pumapasok sa utak ko. Plus the fact I frequently plan to eavesdrop so I would know the details about it.

Julia kept asking me what was wrong during our lunch breaks. Even Nathaniel keeps saying I should drop this but I just can't help it. It's bothering me a lot!

I don't want them to think I have a problem at home, because this isn't a problem, right? I was just curious, that's all! I don't want to bother them with me not in my usual self so I wanted to know the truth. Hindi ko naman p'wedeng tanungin iyon ng diretso sa parents ko, who knows, it might be confidental.

Nakarating na ako sa study room, and as what I've been getting for the past few nights, I got nothing. I sighed, this leads to nothing. I really need to stop this.

Bumalik nalang ako sa kwarto ko. Kailangan ko na ring matulog nang maaga since tomorrow's Sunday. I don't want to be in my sleepy state when we have our little plans.

Plus, lumalaki na rin ang eyebags ko! My goodness! Sa totoo lang, ayaw kong magpakita kay Sebastian dahil doon. Nahihiya akong makita niyang palagi akong haggard.

Napairap nalang ako sa sarili ko. As if he cares.

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I'm getting ready for our little bond. Ilang beses kong tinignan ang sarili ko sa salamin checking if I overdid myself or overdress.

I put concealer under my eye just to hide my dark circles, thanks to lack of sleep. I wore jeans, and a mustard spaghetti strap top. Sa totoo lang, hindi ko sure kung okay ba ang outfit ko for a picnic.

Julia planned a picnic. Napag-usapan namin na kaming dalawa ang bibili ng mga pagkain sa grocery. I'm meeting her in front of the grocery store. Mas maaga lang kami ng one hour kanila Nathaniel and Sebastian.

Si Nathaniel naman, nag-volunteer na siya na raw magdadala ng lampin. Kung ano ano na lang pinagsasabi ng lalaking iyon. Sabi niya, para raw may ambag siya kahit papaano.

"Oh God, I think this is inappropriate," I mumbled. Pumunta ako sa closet ko at naghanap ng jacket. I saw my black denim, and immediately wore it.

There, it's better.

Isinukbit ko na ang maliit kong shoulder bag at lumabas na ng kwarto. Mom and Dad as usual were in the study room, dealing with our business–oops! No! Don't think about it, Diana. Don't you dare.

I have to enjoy this picnic. Even though I know that I might feel uncomfortable seeing Julia and Sebastian having loving moments with each other.

Siguro kailangan ko na ring masanay sa ganoong klaseng set-up. Makaka-moved on rin naman ako. All I need to do is to accept the fact that we couldn't be more than friends.

I rolled my eyes heavenward. What am I saying? I don't even know if we're friends!

Sumasama lang naman siya dahil kasama si Julia. Nothing more. Nothing less.

Nagpaalam na ako kay Yaya Teresita. I already inform my parents about this ahead of time so I'm good to go. Mabilis lang ako nakarating sa grocery store since nagpahatid na ako sa driver namin. So far, wala pa si Julia. Medyo maaga lang naman ako ng fifteen minutes, she'll be here in a moment.