Accepting what I cannot

Conversations with yesterday

I remember you screaming about needing nicotine patches

Because they would not give you a cigarette whilst treating your scratches

But hey kid, look at you know longer needing a bowl

You get high for the fun, no longer to feel whole

I remember all the black and white thinking

Holding hostages on your ship that was so clearly sinking

It is still a struggle to do all by yourself

But one day you will know moderation when it comes to asking for help

You have burned broken bridges without killing anyone

Never looking back, you held your breath and swum

Continue to let these names sit in the dirt

If any are to be dragged yours will be first

Take this anger and make it your religion

Love it for what it is and use its strength in your decisions

Understand that some people are worth admitting you are wrong

And if you must, turn the hurt you have towards them into a song

The both of you know it takes two

But do not take pride in saying it was not just you

He made green a pretty color

Do not let that be ruined with your hate for his brother

Do not ruin this love, I know you do not want to find sanctuary in another

You can be a home to him without making yourself suffer

Take your "needs" and make them "wants"

Do not kill him with obligations because I promise you his love will be one that haunts

Pray, it does not have to be to anything

Who knows maybe one day you will not feel scared when you sing

Ask your deities about their day

Learn to talk without mentioning his name

Learn to talk without saying yours

Ask your fellow man about their storms

You are amongst many human beings

A speck in a part of several much larger things

And find comfort in being a grain

Feel comfort in being familiar with pain

Today you are you

Tomorrow you are new

And today I will find comfort in calling you my friend

So please dear me, hold on because we will surely have this talk again