Bundles of nerves sent "welcome to Sunday" three times today to make sure I got the message
And I thanked my aching back, so the world did not take me for a pessimist
You look at wounds and profess to me your addictions
But these are not track marks these are the doings of wearied syringe needles trying to break the stitches
This is boredom trying to claw its way out from my chest
Trying to cover thousands of thoughts with coats of cinnamon and sex
My house is a chorus of car horns driving past neighbors
They're unmedicated and scared but it shall be my turn to embrace that fate later
I bewitched my beloved into becoming a stranger
I cannot build a requitted love out of relations and prayer
I sent him a thousand thoughts tied to pigeons
Doves before I learned how to slowly burn bits and pieces off bridges
He still proclaimed they were birds snatched from the streets
With maladies fuming from their beaks
So, I gave him the amounts of which he assumed of me
Love letters covered with incurable disease
It is not worth sewing your hurt into birds
And if heartbreak is his expectation from you let his prophecies become a curse
YOU ARE READING
Accepting what I cannot
PoetrySynopsis After years of unresolved trauma, I have decided to write a book consisting of poetry that I have written in some of my deepest moments of self-reflection. Some bittersweet, others uncensored with raw emotion. I mention both the strugg...