Exposed Truth | Jeon Jungkook

Chapter 21

Jungkook || Tuesday, June 21

I heave in a deep breathe as I leave Nari in my bedroom to rest and shut the door with a click. I lean against the door as tears well up in my eyes. I clench my fists and my breathing becomes uneven as soon as I visualise how the gang leader must've touched her; his filthy hands groping her and inflicting pain on her.

When I saw her with bruises on her exposed body and the rips in her dress, my heart shattered. Anger and guilt consumed me; I wanted so badly to rip the rotten man's head off, yet Jimin did it for me by aiming the gun right in the centre of his forehead.

I shouldn't have ever agreed to let her be alone with the gang leader. I should've gone with her, or even better, I should've been the only one to see him. I don't care if I get injured, I can endure that. Yet, I can't cope with the pain in my heart and the immense remorse I feel knowing that she had to suffer, and withstand the man's touches and strikes.

Why did this have to happen to her? I just want her to be happy, but she keeps getting hurt... not only by others, but from me as well... I feel so stupid. I wish I could keep her safe, and I wish I could make her happy, but I just can't seem to make things right.

I keep messing up; I keep making the wrong choices, and I hate myself for that. I wish I could just snap my fingers to bring Yuri back to us, so nobody would have to endure any more suffering or heartbreak, and we would all be contentedly living life.

I feel my body getting weaker as I slide down the door and fall to the wooden floor. I rest my head against the door and shut my eyes as I do my best to stop myself from getting so emotional. Jimin and Lisa are just a couple of metres away from me in the living room, I don't want them to hear me, nor do I want my crying to wake Nari up.

I feel as if everything is all my fault... if only I was a better boyfriend to Yuri and understood her better, then maybe her suicide could have been prevented; if only I didn't have affection for Nari, then my feelings wouldn't be so complicated and I wouldn't be feeling so conflicted; if only...

I hug my legs to ease my shivering body as tears begin to trickle down my cheeks and I feel my nose become runny. I bury my head in between my knees to muffle my sobs. I will myself to stop being a crybaby, but the pain in my chest and the lingering thoughts in my mind don't seem to want to go away.

I hear footsteps coming my way, so I quickly wipe away the tears and lift my head up to see who it is. Jimin comes into view as he gives me a soft smile.

"Hey," he says gently as he comes to my side

I nod my head subtly and reply, "Hey..."

"It's late, you should get some rest," he says as he pats my shoulder. "Lisa and I have been looking at the files, and we need to think of a plan. We'll tell you and Nari about our findings in the morning."

I frown as I look up him, feeling slightly surprised that they started looking through the files, and apologetic that I didn't help out, but cried weakly instead. Jimin must've understood me by the expression on my face, as he shakes his head and chuckles lightly.

"You don't have to worry about anything," he says with a kind smile as he sits down beside me. "The only thing you need to do is rest, while Lisa and I handle things for now."

"But I can't possibly let the two you work all night, you two need to rest too. You've got to let me help out as well." I insist, but Jimin just shakes his head and dismisses what I said.

"We've got this, just go and get some sleep, you look exhausted," Jimin states when I yawn, proving his point.

I sigh as I fiddle with my fingers. He's right, I am really tired and I do want to sleep, but how can I sleep in peace knowing that he and Lisa will be staying awake to read the many documents and help us devise a plan? I already feel really guilty that they've helped us so much, yet we haven't given anything in return for their favours and kindness.