Undercover

Chapter 10

Kaleb's Point of View

I woke up with a splitting headache this morning, I felt like complete and utter shit. I groaned as leaned upright form my lying position and looked around my room with wincing pain. "Fuck", I grimaced in more pain. Trying to remember what the hell happened last night, usually I could stand my grounds with just alcohol, but when it came to alcohol and pills, I was defeated. I got up slowly from my bed, to get a look at myself in the mirror, I stumbled a bit but I got there. "Well I look like crap", I said to myself again, I poked and prodded my face for a while until I came to my lips, then I remembered what happened last night, Jess kissed me, she kissed me without me having to initiate since we were somewhat together back then, a smile was quickly forming on my face, as it was nice remembering her lips on mine before my body found the urge to throw up.

After what felt like an eternity throwing up, I dry heaved for about five minutes and flushed. I will admit I felt a bit better, but now I was dying hungry, my stomach made the noises and everything. I slowly made my way downstairs, because my head was feeling like someone was taking a hammer and nail pounding it on every nerve there was. I stopped when I saw a mesh food cover, covering a plate with food underneath, I walked closer and there was a note attached to the covering, and it read 'I know you'll be hungry on the morning so I made this, medicine is in the brownbag on the coffee table', I looked across to the coffee table, and ther it was, a brown bag just sitting there. I knew Jess didn't have the best impression of me and she didn't really like me, but she still did things for me and she cared a bit, I guess that's one of the reasons I loved her so much.

Flashback

I looked at Jess with a smile on my face, seeing her dance like that was really a turn on for me, but at the same time she made me smile unknowingly at her. The music stopped and she and Tiggs laughed and hugged each other, and as if in slow motion, she turned to me and smiled, and it was like a slap to the face, a sweet sexy slap to the face, I smiled back at her and gave her a little wave, but she didn't wave back. She started walking over in my direction and made her way to the bar area, and leaned playfully over the counter, "I'll have a coke please", she asked in a somewhat tired tone, as she panted a little, sweat glistened her chocolate body, and her hair was becoming a little lose form all the dancing she did. "You know you could drink now right you're eighteen", I said in her direction, she looked in my direction and responded, "I could, but I don't drink, the taste doesn't sit well with me", and she smiled, that smile could kill, and then my eyes trailed down to her lips, and I licked mine.

Twenty minutes later she was still here sipping her coke, even though it looked like it was properly well watered down. I wanted to start a conversation did but we couldn't really hear each other well, so we decided to take a walk since inside was getting crowed and hot, she told Tiggs where we were going. A cold blast of air hit us as we opened the door and she hugged herself, I guess she was still feeling cold even though she had on sweater of her own, so I gave her mine, and she smiled at me again and thanked me. We were walking for what felt like hours, laughing and getting to know each other better, a little flirting here and there, and that's when I kissed her for the first time, under the eighth streetlight form this jewelry store, that was close to the club we came from. It lasted for about three seconds, and she pulled back, looking up at me with her light brown almond shaped eyes, this had to be the most magical moment in my life, and to make it better, she leaned in and kissed me again. Her soft lips were on mine and I loved it, we stood there making out slowly at first and then the pace picked up, our tongues fought each other as the kiss became stronger and my hands made their way down to her waist.

She grabbed me by my right hand and led me in the ally way next to the club not very far from it though, and we continued our make out session, and since we were not in an exactly romantic location, we couldn't really get much done, but we enjoyed ourselves. We went back to the club not long after and she enjoyed herself a bit more, and all I could think of was her lips on mine, "You alright man?", Matty sat beside me near the bar and asked because I was still smiling like a fool, touching my lips, "yeah man, this may just be the best night of my life", I said as I watched Jess dance on the floor, she looked so sexy.

We hung around each other for like four months and it was the best, we talked a lot, and we learnt a lot about each other, like the fact that she's afraid of a lot of things, and I mean a lot, dogs, cats, insects, snakes, meeting new people that she doesn't know among others, and even though she didn't drink, I think I got drunk for both of us, because when she started laughing it was her best times. She would laugh like she downed about four bottles of tequila. One night we got in super late, and I didn't want to go back to my house to be alone, she invited me to hers, but she said we had to be very quiet because if her parents found out she'd be toast. "Kaleb be quiet", she giggled at me saying, "okay, but why are you acting like you did all the drinking?", I questioned her confused, "I feed off of you", she said as she pulled me into her room, closing the door shut quietly.

We laid in bed together, Jess on my arms and me playing through her untamed mane of hair, talking about random stuff for half an hour till she fell asleep. I stroked her face and smiled, I could really get used to this, I thought to myself as I smiled. I reached over to the lamp to turn it off since I was getting drowsy myself, when my phone buzzed with a message. 'Kaleb dude where are you Ray got the good stuff tonight come over if you want any Jamie is destroying it', and with that he sent a picture, I could barely see with all the smoke there was. I sighed and looked at Jess peacefully asleep, I didn't want to tell her that I did drugs and drank till I didn't know myself, she was too good for that, I didn't want to drag her into my kind of lifestyle. Usually, when I got a kind of message like this I would jump at the chance, but I just wanted to spend this last night with her, to smell her moisturized hair, to look at her angelic sleeping face, and to kiss her lips for the last time before I had to let her go.

Honestly, I took the cowardly way out, the morning before she woke up I left her a note saying why I left and why we couldn't be together, it wasn't the whole truth but I needed her to be herself without having to worry about me. I even took a week off form school just to get it together, but when I did go to school, she came at me, questioning me why I did that to her. She pulled me inside an empty classroom and when questioning me she cried, I almost cried too but I didn't want to, not in front of her. Later that same day, I went home and bawled my eyes out actually, it was bad because I missed and needed her, but good cuz my parent weren't home to hear and see me cry. Some weeks after I learned that she and Matty actually got together, I was pissed, but at least I got to see her smile again.

End of flashback

A tear actually rolled onto my cheeks, it was a happy and a sad tear, happy because I could still remember the way her lips were, but sad because I was the reason I won't get to see that million dollar smile for me, knowing very well that she cared enough me she made me breakfast and get me medicine, I sighed as I ate the food prepared.