Dear Peter, I will always love you

Chapter 29

I stand at the door waiting for him to leave, he just stares at me a moment. I hear him sigh, I don't think I'm being rational I'm his girlfriend I should be his priority.
"Covey.. can we just talk please.." he says while breathing out, he takes a seat on my bed and stares at me. He looks sad. I shut my door and walk over to him and sit down.
"I need you covey.. I don't know why we keep getting into these hard places..." he places his head in his hands.
"Peter.. I love you it's just hard for me to see you put another girl as your number one, I want that to be me so badly.. I want to be your everything.." I say gently while playing with my hands.
"You are my everything, I promise. I don't know what to do about gen, she always needs me and I feel like I have some duty to be there for her.." he looks at me.
"You don't have any duty, she broke your heart Peter, she didn't know what she had until she lost you .. that's not fair on you.." I place my hand in his, staring at his eyes.
"I was her first covey, I took everything from her and every time she has a heart break I feel like I need to fix it.." he holds mine tighter.
"You don't need to fix it, it's not your fault that this happened but I need you to understand that I love you more than anything and if gen is the one who truly makes you happy and not me then I'll let you go.. so you can be happy.." he shakes his head as soon as I say this which gives me some sense of relief.
"Covey no, your mine forever remember. I don't love gen anymore, I love you with every inch of my body. I won't go this weekend I want to show you how much I love you.." I smile a little but feel some sense of guilt, he was excited to go away and I took that away.
"You can go if you want and we can spend time when your back, I don't want to make you miss out.." I peck his forehead as I rub his hand.
"Covey.. I don't wanna if you don't want me to.." he says. Even though I'm saying this I don't want him to go. I want him to stay with me but I don't wanna ruin what we have over some silly weekend. I want him to decide not me.
"It's up to you honestly, your call is fine with me. I have loads of homework anyway.." please stay please stay.
"That's why I love you covey, I'll FaceTime you every night I promise it's only two nights.." he pecks my forehead and cuddles me into his chest. My heart breaks a little,  I hold back the tears and he cuddles into me.