Dear Peter, I will always love you

Chapter 28

I arrive at the care home and it's been a couple weeks since I told John everything. It went well, it went better than expected actually. He's been good to me and been a great help around here, And peter. Well peters peter. He's still comforting gen, I realise it's a battle I won't win. It's fine though.. Nothing going on between them?

"Covey!" I hear being shouted down the hall, I smile at John Ambrose and wave walking towards him.

"Hey John Ambrose, you good?" I smile at him, he nudged his shoulder into mine.

"Yeah I'm good, but how are you? Is everything with peter better?" He says awkwardly as we walk along the hall. Today's the day of the dance at the care home, so we've to set everything up.

"Eh? Yeah we're solid... like concrete..." I nudge back into him as I say it in a monotone voice.

A few hours have past and we've almost finished decorating the hall. We've decided to finish the rest later so we can go home and get ready. I have a good feeling about tonight.

I get home and jump straight in the shower, I'm singing some k pop. When I here my bedroom door open. I pause my music and turn the shower off wrapping my towel around my tight. I peak round the corner of the door.

"Oh peter it's you..." I wasn't expecting him, we didn't have any plans.

"Hey covey.." he pecks my head "thought I'd surprised you before I go away for the weekend.. I'm gonna miss you.." I squint my face up, he's going away he never told me this. Where's he going?

"Your going away for the weekend?" I say shyly, I've hardly seen him these past couple weeks and now he's going away.

"Eh yeah I thought I told you, Gens mum.." I hear Gens name. Is he really going on a weekend away with her.

"Wait, Gens mum. Are you seriously going away with them? Peter you've got to be kidding me.." I say sternly, why is he going away with her, he should be spending tonight with me not her but he always chooses gen.

"Covey... I thought I told you. After everything with her dad leaving. I thought you'd understand she needs me.." anger starts boiling up inside me. I start walking towards him.

"You thought I'd understand. How do you not understand? It's ALWAYS GEN... it's never me.." my voice gets slower and more shaky as my eyes tear up.
"She's your ex girlfriend peter it's been months since it happened you don't need to act like her boyfriend your already someone else.... do you still love me peter?" I feel a tear slip from my eye as I ask him.

"Covey..." he hold my hands and pulls me closer holding onto my hips. "Of course I still love you.. I've told you so many times I'm just being her friend. She needs someone and I'm all she's got. We can't keep going in circles covey I love you always" he's right we're going in circles, we just keep going over this again and again and I can't do it another time he needs to pick.

"Peter I can't keep doing this, you never see me. Your always with her. You need to chose it's me or gen because I can't have a part time boyfriend who puts his ex first..." he looks annoyed but it's true. I need someone who's gonna put me first.

"I put you first all the time covey I'm always with you , just recently I've been busy you can't blame me for being a good guy. I can't just let her suffer on her own." His voice isn't as soft and gentle as before he seems agitated.

"What do you do when your with her.." I know I shouldn't ask but it's always on my mind.

"We just watch movies in her room, get food nothing major covey..." I bite my bottom lip, that's what he should be doing with me not her.

"You should be watching movies with me, cuddling up with me in my bed, not her. We don't see each other anymore I need to know now if it's me or her.."

He just stares at me "you can't make me do that" I move away from him. "That should be easy peter" I look down he should of just chose me. "How can it be easy..you can't make me chose between the two of you she needs me.." I walk towards my bedroom door.

"I need you too peter, you should of chose me without even thinking, I think we should have some time apart have fun on your 'weekend away' you should go now.." I can't believe him, he never understands.