Dear Peter, I will always love you

Nine

Times flown by and we only have a couple more days here in this paradise. It's quite incredible, I still can get over the view. I finally finish my book and lay it down next to me and put my sunglasses over my eyes. I've gotten a pretty sick tan since I've been here. Peter wants to throw a massive party for the last two days and he's being really cute about it. I invited Lucas and Chris because I miss them and I'm sure they'd enjoy this too. I sit in the sun and soak up the sun for a couple hours to pass time before I have to get ready for tonight. I wanna look good, amazingly good, like good enough that maybe possibly Lara jean could be good enough for Peter Kavinsky the hottest guy in school.

As time passed by I get up and head upstairs to shower. Not many people are out in the lounge they are mostly in their rooms. Presumably getting ready. Peter fixing last minute things like drinks and snacks. I walk past him and he grabs my waist from behind pulling me close to him. "I've missed you..." he whispers in my ear, I lean into him and smile a little smile. "I've missed you too.." I lean my head against to the side, he pecks my cheek and releases me. I continue my way up the stairs.

I undress myself out of my bikini and turn on the shower. I love hot showers they are so relaxing and soothing, as the water hits my skin it feels like every worry I have disappears. "Yo LG!" I hear a very familiar voice and I scream. I jump out the shower and wrap a towel round me. "Chriss!" I scream, I give her a tight squeeze. "LG this place is insane, you should have invited me earlier" she jokes jumping on the bed, she kicks off her boots and scrolls through her phone. I head back in the shower and quickly wash my hair and body. I shave everywhere, so I'm nice and fresh for tonight. I come out wrapped in my towel again and sit at the dresser.

"What's new LG, have you and Peter you know..." she does sexual gestures and I go all tense because I knows she going but the thing is we have. "Forget I asked LG, you would never.." she laughs to herself, should I tell her. I should she's my best friend after all. I would probably tell Lucas. "Well Chris... we kinda did..." I say slowly combing through my wet hair. "OMG!" She screams at the tops of her lungs, I sink back in my chair putting oil throughout my hair. "Shh.." I widen my eyes at her "when? How? Where?" She whisper screams at me. "Here. It just kinda happened, we went skinny dipping and I then I just told him I was ready" I smile brightly, it feels good telling someone. "Wait.. LG you went skinny dipping? Peter Kavinsky convinced Lara Jean Covey to go skinny dipping?" Chris seems shocked, like extremely shocked and when she says it so do i. "Well I convinced him actually..." it's like a confession, it comes out shyly. "Wow this is big, what's happened to you.." I shrug not knowing exactly what to say.

I straighten my hair and put some make up on Which I never usually do. I go into my suitcase and look through the clothes. "Chris what do I wear?" I sigh, throwing clothes from out of my suitcase onto the floor. "I don't know LG, why is it a big deal?" She seems uninterested but battles that when she gets up from the bed and helps me looks. "Oooo this!" Chris hold up a black satin slip dress. "I don't know.." I continue looking, "Why not LG you'd look hot in it." She battles me, "Well I just don't know if I'd feels comfortable in it" Chris rolls her eyes dramatically. "Then why's you bring it LG?" Good point Chris, why did I bring it. It's something Gen would wear but Peter likes me. Not Gen. "I don't know, how about this?" I hold up leather skirt and lacy bralette style crop top. "Omg yes LG, Peter will die when he sees you in that!" She pushes me up and into the bathroom. As I'm charging I hear peters voice, I try and listen close so I can hear them.

"Chris" it's muffled but I can kind of make out what they are saying. "Kavinsky.." Chris seems devious and I hope she doesn't say anything about what me and Peter did because I'd hate for him to think I was gloating about it. "Why are you here?" I know Peter isn't the biggest fan of Chris so I didn't tell him. "LG invited me obviously" I hear the hint of annoyance in her voice. I fix myself and look in the mirror. I look like a different person. I smile at myself satisfied at the look and unlock the bathroom door and walk out. "Lg you look hot!" Chris laughs to herself and I just smile small.

"Wow, Covey..." Peter whispers walking closer to me. He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me close. "Nope nope nope, I'll see you later LG!" Chris shouts and walks out but nothing seems to distract Peter from me. His eyes are fixated on me like a kid in a candy store. "What?" I giggle to myself, he looks mesmerised which gives me a flutter in my stomach. "You look incredible.. I'm glad your mine" he pulls me closer, I wrap my arms around his neck and he lowers his hand onto my bum. "Mhm.." I hum to myself liking the attention. His face inches closer to mine. He presses his lips against mine and I happily respond with a kiss back. He's contagious the more he looks at me, smiles at me, touches me, the more I want him. He moves his lips from my mouth to my neck. His lips are so soft, extremely soft. "Mhm.." I hum again to myself with a smile in my face, he looks up and smiles at me. "Do you like that?.." I nod pressing my lips on his again. I break away from the kiss and stare into his eyes "I love you..." it seems more intimate from me this time. I really truly mean it. "I love you.." I like how he doesn't say too, it makes me feel special like he's not only saying it because I am.

We're down stairs and the music is really loud. I spot Lucas in the crowd, I wave and motion for him to come over. He does as I say, I give him the biggest hug when I see him. "Lucas! I've missed you!" I squeal, it's been so long since I've seen him. "I've missed you to Lara Jean" I smile at him as I let go of his embrace. "Want a drink?" I ask him and I grab myself a beer. "Nah I'm alright" I take a sip and we walk over to the sofa. "Lara jean you look amazing in this, since when did you start dressing like this.." I shrug giggling to myself loving the positive attention. "I need to tell you something.." I've had a couple of beers at this point and I have an urge to tell Lucas that me and Peter slept together. "What?" He seems amused he probably knows I'm a little tipsy. "I slept with Peter!" I squeal, he does the same in return. "Wait what, when, was it good?" He asks all excited. "Here. It was amazing, I really love him" my heart flutters and I look over at him. He's leaning against a wall looking perfect, talking to the boys. "I can tell, ever since you and Peter got together you've had such a vibrant light come from you. It's really amazing Lara jean I'm happy for you" he says hugging me, I'm too busy thinking of him. I want him. I want him to hold me, touch me, kiss me.

I tell Lucas I'm away to find Peter and I walk straight to him. He smiles as soon as he sees me. "Hey Covey, you alright?" I nod smiling at him. He wraps his arms around me pulling me into his side. I wrap my arms around his waist snuggling into him. "Wanna grab a drink.." he says but it's more a statement than a question. It's like he's telling me I wanna grab a drink. He pulls me outside and sits me on his lap. " I'm going to miss this.." he sighs looking up at the stars, I rest my head against his chest and look up too. "Me too.." I look at him and he looks sad. I caress his cheeks. "What's wrong?" I frown, he shrugs pulling me closer. "Nothing, I just wish we could be in this paradise forever.." I smile pitifully at him. "So do I.. this isn't real life though..." I peck his lips and move myself so my legs are strangled over his. My skirt rises a bit but know ones back here so it's fine.  "Your so beautiful.." he holds my waist and pushes me closer to his chest. "I am?" My heads spinning a bit from all the alcohol but I don't consider myself beautiful. "That makes you even more beautiful, the fact you don't even know you are.. it's quite incredible Lara jean. Your quite incredible.." I try not smile brightly so it comes out small and I look down. He pushes my hair out my face and lifts my head up.  I bite my lower lip, breathing I'm deep. "You drive me insane Covey..." is the last thing he says before smashing his lips against mine.

The night continues and I've had plenty to drink, I'm having such a blast. Peters had loads to drink too. I go over to him and make him dance with me. I jump about and have a good time, he just smiles at me and observers every once of my body. I grabs my waist and pulls me in. "Your so h-hot" he whispers in my ear. "Hmmm tell me more.." I giggle, and he smirks at me. "Maybe we should head up stairs..." I know exactly what he wants to do. I know that the only reason my reply is what it is, is because I've not got the right mindset right now but neither does he.

"Yeah.. I think we should" I grab his hands and walk up to our room.