Dear Peter, I will always love you

Twenty three

I texted peter to come over and he seemed down to it.  I lay on the couch waiting for him to arrive.  Why are things so complicated why can't things just be easy.

I hear a knock at the door and get up to answer it. "Hi.." I smile at him gently. "Yo.." he smiles looking around. "Oh eh come in.." I say getting myself out the way. He chuckles a little bit. "Woah your house is dark.." he says looking around. "Eh yeah everyone out for the weekend so..." I shrug, he nods his head. "Wanna sit down here or go upstairs..." I say not knowing what to do. "Whatever's chill with me" I look around awkwardly, "eh okay.." he looks at me and laughs at how awkward I'm being. "Let's just chill down here and we can watch a film or something" he smiles at me placing a hand on the small of my back, making me feel butterflies in my stomach, guiding me to the sofa.

We finish watching the movie and I'm leaning into his and he wraps one arm around me. It feels like the old us. I look up at him and smile. "What's that for?" He asks smiling back.
"Nothing I'm just happy.." I smile at him, he leans down and pecks my lips. "I'm happy too." I snuggle into him never wanting to let go. His phone beeps and his attention instantly goes on the phone, I just stare up at him. "Yo wanna go to the beach a bunch of people are there it looks rad" he says texting on his phone, I bite my lip not knowing if I should. "Em... I don't know.." he looks down and gives my shoulder a shake, I give a small smile and roll my eyes. "Come on...it'll be good to get out the house" he nudged my shoulder. I sigh "fine.." he smiles at me.

I changed into some leggings and a baggy jumper with a bikini underneath. We're sitting on the beach and it's so beautiful, Peters laughing and having fun with his friends. I watch how happy he is and it makes me happy but I feel so out of place, like an outsider. I wrap my arms around my legs and pull them into my chest. I watch as the sun sets and everyone goes and sits by the fire.

"Yo! Covey!" Peter shouts from the fire and motions for me to come over. I smile and nod slightly before slowly getting up and making my way over. "You okay?" Peter awks while wrapping his arm around me and pulling me in close to him. I just nod and lean into him.

As the people start to leave Peter and I stay close to each other staring at the fire until it's just the two of us. It's silence for a while, just both of us staring out as the fire burns.

"I'm sorry" is all that comes out his mouth, it's quiet. "Hm?" I look up confused. "I'm just sorry covey, I know it's been hard for you.." he bites his lower lip. I gulp down and position my self where our faces our level.

"Don't be sorry.." I take a deep breathe "I'm happy.." I say not knowing if it's a lie or if I'm telling the truth. "Promise?" He says putting his pinky out, I put mine out and we lock "promise" I smile at him and peck his lips. "I should take you home.." he says getting up and helping me up. "How about you stay tonight?" I say wrapping my arms around his neck. "Are you sure?" I nod and smile at him.

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As we head upstairs I can feel his hands on my back. He picks me up and I start to laugh as he pins me down on my bed and starts to tickle me. "Pet-er... st-op" I try and get out while I laugh, he stops and rubs his hands down my sides and smiles as he stares at me up and down. It makes me feel nervous as my breath slows down. "Your so perfect" I just smile, I don't reply. "I mean it your incredible, the best thing that's in my life.." he licks his lips and his eyes goes from my eyes to my mouth. I gulp and bite my lower lip, smiling nervously. He leans down and kisses me. I get goosebumps as if it's the first time we've kissed.  He cuddles me and lays done next to me.

"I missed this" he sighs, snuggling himself into me. "I missed you" he says looking up at me. I smile and peck his lips.

"Are you wanting to shower before I do?" I say getting up changing the subject.