Dear Peter, I will always love you

Thirteen

I'm laying in bed, it's quite late but the butterflies from our date don't leave my system. It was amazing. I look up at the ceiling and smile to myself. I turn my lamp off and cosy myself under the covers. As my eyes drift off to sleep I hear a bang at the window. I look over in a panic and see Peter standing there on the tree. I open the window "what are you doing here?..." I whisper so my dad doesn't hear.  "I missed you.. I thought I could stay..." I give him a confused look. Is he CRAZY he knows how my dad is. No boys are allowed in the room with the door shut and no boys are allowed to stay. That's the rules and Peter knows this. "Yeah but what if..." he interrupts me  "there won't be a what if... I'll sneak out before he wakes up... promise" he says holding me in his arms and I trust him. I really trust him.

We lay in bed and he spoons me, I feels nice to be next to him again. I hold onto his arms so his body stays next to mine. His face is cosied is the creek of my neck. "I love spooning it's just so nice..." he whispers into my neck. I stay quiet just enjoying the moment. My eyes go heavy and I drift off to sleep.

"LARA JEAN SONG COVEY!" I wake up in a shock to the sound of my dads voice. Peters still in bed and his arms are still around me. I stay quiet looking down. Peter jolts up too at how loud he shouts. "YOU KNOW THE RULES LARA JEAN, WHAT IS HE DOING HERE!" He shouts again, I've never seen my dad so angry. "Im sorry.... nothing happen we were just cuddling... nothing will happen I promise dad I'm not ready..." I lie to him I'm a whisper, his face becomes calmer until Peter pitches in. "Dr Covey I'm sorry it was my fault I just missed Lara jean so much I thought I'd come by and visit but I must of fell asleep..." my dads face goes cross again. "I know this is your fault my Lara Jean would never do something like this. "Dad stop it I'm seventeen, you can't keep treating me like a kid. Me and Peter have been dating for well over a year now, you should be able to trust him and I enough to sleep in a bed together without doing anything. Not all teens are sex craved and you should know fine well I'm not like that and neither is Peter!" I huff, he can't treat me like this. "I've got to go to work, this isn't finished Lara jean I'll talk to you tonight" he says before going off.

I cross my arms and huff, Peter wraps his arms around me. "Wow covey I've never seen you stand up for yourself like that" he kisses my forehead. "He can't keep treating you like your going to hurt me. I love you and he should just be happy I found love like I have..." I cuddle into his chest. "I love you and I love the way you stick up for me. It's kinda sexy.." he whispers in my ear. "Is that right..." I look up and place my lips on his. Kitty stayed at her friends house after swimming yesterday so we have the whole house to ourselves. "Mhm... you like Covey...every bit of you is mine" he wraps my legs around me and bites on my lower lips. He slips his tongue in and we kiss forcefully. He flips me round and I giggle. He starts placing kisses on my neck and jawline. He trials back up my mouth and I play with his hair.

"Oh Peter..." his thrusts are hard, forceful. "Mmm Covey, I love you.." he says out of breathe. "Uh... mmmm... ooo.. Peter..." I moan into his ear.

"COVEY IM HOME!!!" I hear kitties voice from downstairs. Both mine and peters eyes widen. Peter gets off me and runs to the toilet to finish off and I quickly grab a robe. "Upstairs..." I shout. I wrap my robe round me and grab a towel. "Hi...." she smiles at me. "Did you have fun?" She nods, "peters here he's just in the bathroom, I'm gonna shower so be good to him" I say. "Wait why is he here so early?" She asks obviously confused. "Oh he stayed over last night" I say without giving it a second thought. "Does daddy know because he isn't going to be happy" I roll my eyes "yes daddy knows and he definitely isn't happy but it's not a big deal so don't go sticking your nose in it" I tell her. "Ok..." she looks down and heads to her room.

I lay down on my bed and close my eyes. How did things get like this? Everything seems so different. I feel different. I am different. I'm not introvert Lara jean anymore, I have friends I think. "Are you ok?" Peter falls down on the bed next to me and wraps his arms around me. "Yeah it's just, I would never speak to my Dad like that ever" I regret it, I regret speaking to him like that. I sigh. "It'll all be fine... I'm sure it was just shock.." Peter runs his hands through my hair. I nod moving in closer to him to try get rid of this feeling.

It's later and Peter left so my dad doesn't catch him. I make dinner and set the table. I hear the front door close and I see daddy. "Just in time dinners ready!" I say enthusiastically, he doesn't give me a second glance. "Kitty were getting take out for tea what do you want?" He says, I feel a pang I'm my chest. I just made dinner. "Yes!!! I want sushi" Kitty says over the moon. "Lara jean daddy's getting take out what do you wa-" daddy cuts kitty off. "She's not getting anything she made food.. come on"he leads her to the lounge. I stare into space not knowing why he's acting like this.

I run upstairs and slam my door shut. Ugh! how rude! I scream into my pillow. I'm so angry I grab a overnight bag and start filling it with bits and bobs. I walk out my room and grab my coat on the way down. "Where are you going?" I hear kitty. I ignore her. "LARA JEAN COVEY WHERE ARE YOU GOING?" I head my Dad shout at me. "PETERS!" I shout before slamming the door shut.