Dear Peter, I will always love you

Fourteen

I get into my car and slam my hands against the wheel. What an ass. He's never been like this and he definitely wasn't like this with josh and Margot. I turn the radio on and back out the drive. I drive all the way to Peter and just sit in the car. I take my phone out and call him.

Ring
Ring
Ri-
"Hey covey..." his voice so soft and gentle. I love it.
"Are you at home?" I question
"Yes why? Is everything ok?" I chuckle a bit at his is everything ok? No it's not everything falling apart.  When I just built everything up.
"I'm outside..." I sigh.
"Do you wanna come in or go for a drive or what?" He asks again, trying his best to satisfy my needs.
"I need a place to stay..." I let out a huff, feeling my self get stuffy.
"Oh did it really go that bad..." he's shocked just like I am.
"Yup... can you just come out I wanna see your face..." I say missing him.

Peter walks towards me and I smile as he gets into the passenger seat of my car. I turn the heating up and we just sit. "I honestly didn't think it was going to be that bad..." he sighs placing a hand on my thigh. "It's partly my fault, he just keeps treating me like a child and he never did this with Margot and josh" I feel myself getting angry and I think peter can sense it as he runs circles into my thigh. "You really need a place to crash?" He asks, I nod not wanting to go back. He's gonna kill me and I don't wanna deal with that right now.

"Come on then, my mom said it was ok..." he jumps out the car and opens my door for me. I grab my bag and make my way inside his. I never go over to peters he's always at mine. It's nice just like I remember. "Hi lara Jean" his mother greets me with a big smile and open arms "Hi how have you been?" I smile back at her "oh just great we've missed having you around, stay as long as you like" she smiles, I nod smiling back and Peter grips my hand in his and leads me to his room.

I lay sit down on his bed and place my bag on the floor. I lay down silently and just think. Peter doesn't say anything but I know he wants to make sure I'm ok. So he does exactly what I know he'll do. He lays nexts to me and holds me in a tight embrace. "I'm so lucky to have you.." I whisper to him as I turn round and snuggle into him. "Say that again I couldn't hear you..." he says placing his lips all over my neck. "Haha stop it.." I Laugh. "Go on tell me how lucky you are.." he says getting on top of me, we're both smiling and laughing. I can just picture us being like this forever. "Soooo lucky.." I exaggerate. I giggle a little and he pecks my lips. "I'm thankful for you covey... so thankful" he whispers in my ear. It makes me smile.

We laid in his bed together watching movies for the majority of the night. Before peter got a text asking if he wanted to go to a party. So now we are. We're driving in his car to the party. The sky so perfect. We get there and it's so loud, and there's already a lot of people drunk. "Ready?" He looks at me grabbing my hand. I nod and he takes us inside.

"Yooo kavinsky" all the boys shout, I stand there silently observing my surroundings. "You okay?" James whispers in my ear and I nod. He pulls me closer I hug his arm. Looking around the place not knowing who I'm the right mind would want their house getting trashed. "Do you want a drink?" I ask him. "Yeah babe please" I smile pecking his check before heading to the kitchen. I feel weird. This party is nothing like the ones we've been to before. "lara jean" I hear her voice, I sigh. "Yes Gen?" I widen my eyes not looking impressed. "Surprised to see you here, didn't think Peter would take you here since he didn't last time..." she smirks and I screw my face up. "Peter can do whatever he wants he doesn't always have to invite me" a part of me believes this but a small part is furious he wouldn't tell me. I walk away grab a drink and gulp it down. I'm so angry. I finish it and grab another one not picking peters one up. I storm over to him. "Peter!What the hell!" I shout grabbing his arm and pulling him upstairs into a bedroom.

"Woah covey what's wrong?" He tried to sit me on the bed. I get right back up. And stand as he sits. "You know how stupid I just looked in front of 'Gen'? Hm!" I shout at him. "What's going on?" He tries to calm me down. "I get it you can do things on your own but not telling me and then hearing it from her, I feel so stupid!" I slap my hand on his chest and he holds them still. I stare at him and he stares at me. I get closer and straddle his lap. We don't say anything we just stay close. He let's go of my hand and I drape them over his shoulders. I tilt my head and place my lips on his. His push against mine as his hands rest on my bum. I gently push him down so he's laying on the bed. I keep kissing him. His hand explore my body as if it was the first time again.

He flips me over so he's on top of me now. I run my fingers through his hair. "Your perfect.." I let out with a breathe before placing my lips on his again. He places a trail of kisses from my lips to my neck. I run my fingers through his hair still. "Ooo... pet-" I let out before getting interrupted.

"Peter! Are you im he-, oh this is hilarious" I hear here voice which instantly get me angry again. I push Peter off me and push past Gen. "Covey wait! Your ridiculous Gen grow up!" I hear him shout, I don't stop I keep walking until I'm out the door. I take a deep breathe of the fresh air. I lean again the side of the house.

"You alright?" I hear an unfamiliar voice. I look to my side and he's gorgeous. He has brown scruffy hair and his clothes are cool. He's gorgeous in the total opposite way than Peter is. "Em yeah... " I say wrapping my arms round my legs. He takes a seat next to me. "Why are you not enjoying the party then?" He nudges my arm. I chuckle a bit. "I just needed some air.." I bit my lip as I look down. "Covey! You out here?" I hear peter shout. I stay quite. "Is he looking for you?" I nod. "Seems like everything not alright" I look up at him. "Yeah no..." I sigh. "Well here's my number we can talk sometime if you want.." he pecks my cheeks and goes off. My eyes widen and heart beats fast. What's happening.

"There you are Covey.."