Wishing I Could Save Myself from a Life I Despise: My Shadowed Life Series

Chapter 19: Have You Figured it Out Yet

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Chapter 19: Have You Figured it Out Yet  

“You’re my stalker? You’ve got to be fucking kidding me!” I sneered as I yanked my arm from his grip. I felt so betrayed.

I was floored by his revelation. How could he do this to me? He followed me and watched me for 2 years, yet never said a damn word? It made no sense. All hope of me understanding his reasoning for such a blatant violation of my privacy was lost the moment he told me he was stalking me.

 A hint of hurt and regret flashed in his eyes before he reeled his emotions in and faced me head on, eye to eye and face to face. He wasn’t backing down but neither was I. I wanted an explanation and he owed me that much. Had he any idea what I had suffered because of him? Because of his damn notes and flowers, I spent many nights in the hospital trying to come up with new ways to die.

“Please Trinity, let me explain. It isn’t what you think.”  His voice was desperate and pleading, but how could I have given in?

Did I want to hear his excuses? A part of me was so betrayed by him that I had no desire to listen to him, but another part, a part that was slowly overpowering the first, felt that he deserved a chance. That part felt that our friendship was too strong to break over something like this. Only our relationship didn’t feel like a friendship to me, it felt far stronger than that.

“It better be a pretty damn good excuse Maxim.” I commented angrily as I stepped away from him, crossing my arms against my chest defensively.

“I’ll tell you everything, just please hear me out okay cheri? Can you keep an open mind, and try to understand my side of things?” He nearly begged and it angered me that he was again responding to me with questions.

One more annoying question and I was going to punch his handsome face. His blue and silver eyes stared at me for a moment before he gestured me to take a seat next to Gabe on the couch I had so hastily removed myself from. I glared at him and sat patiently waiting for him to explain.

“About two years ago, just after you almost died, Gabe came to me and asked me to keep an eye on you.” He stated calmly and I almost flipped out. Gabe made him do this? I was going to kill him too.

“What? Gabe, you made him follow me, watch me for the last 2 years? What the hell is wrong with you?” I asked in disbelief.

How could he do that when he knew how much I valued my privacy? That was the exact reason that I never admitted the things that happened to me. That, and the fact that if I had one or both of us may have ended up dead. It wasn’t such a bad fate for me, but for Gabe it would have been disastrous, I would never have forgiven myself.

“Trin, I’m sorry. You almost died. You did die and I brought you back. I was worried about you.” Gabe smiled a sad but reassuring smile. He was forlorned at the memory of that day. It was the worst day of my life as well, and I have had some pretty viciously awful days.

“You should have let me die. It would have saved me a lot of suffering.” I replied hopelessly. It was appalling, but it was true. If I could have escaped the last two years of pain and suffering, I would have chosen it willingly.

“Trinity stop saying that! What is wrong with you?” Max asked on the verge of anger. He was furious with me for even thinking it, let alone saying it. I could see it in his eyes. The way they reflected his emotions, it was like I could read his every thought.

“What’s wrong with me? What’s wrong with you? Do you have any idea how much shit I had to endure because of you?” I screamed at Max, stood up quickly and charged him. I was right in his face and I was consumed by rage. He stared at me bewildered, as if he had no idea what I was talking about. Well, I guess it’s time to clue him in.