Memories under the Cherry Blossom Tree

Ch 38 Confessing their true feelings atlast..

Hey lovely readers,
Many wanted a sweet chapter so I got this one in...It's short, but I hope its sweet enough for now, it's actually their heart to heart talk after five long years, speaking out and clearing all inhibitions..hope you enjoy..

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After dinner,everyone said their goodnights and goodbyes, taking their leave of Arthit and Kong to go home..they had made their plans and promised to catch up with updates the next day...

As Arthit closed the door, the apartment fell silent. He walked to Kong sitting on the sofa..

"Shall we go upstairs?" He asked..

Kong suddenly felt shy, though its not the first time he's spent the night with Arthit, it certainly felt different as today he would be with him as his Tuan..the old familiarity gave P'Kit certain rights....He felt his cheeks heat up as he nodded...

Arthit lifted him effortlessly from the sofa and started to walk towards the stairs..Kong's arms were around Arthit's neck..their faces so close Kong could see every detail of Arthit's face down to the last freckle..

Unconsciously he bent his head into Arthit's neck inhaling in his comforting scent..he needed it after all the discussion they had..his head felt like its been through a compressor, aching with all the details and worry for his seniors and family...

Arthit pushed the door of his bedroom with his elbow and walked to the bed laying Kong down gently..

"Do you want to use the washroom or something?"

"P'Kit!! I can go myself..don't baby me.." Kong blushed furiously..

"Ok, it's just that we used to do this before.." Arthit acted hurt tat Kong didn't want him to take care of him tat way..

Seeing his P's hurt expression Kong couldn't say no.."Ok P'..it's just that I am older now na..I feel shy.." he explained..

"You are so cute when you blush you know..I am loving you more by the day Tuan..don't ever leave me alone again naaa." Arthit said pinching Kong's plump cheeks..

Kong surprised Arthit by hugging him tightly.."I am sorry P'Kit..I never meant to leave..I wouldn't have left if I knew Uncle Philip and P'Namtarn had such evil plans..I thought I was disturbing your family peace by coming between you and them..I couldn't see Papa Jack choose between me, an outsider and your family after he had given me so much....Will you forgive me for breaking your heart and letting you suffer alone P'...."

Arthit hugged him back.."I don't blame you Tuan..had I been in your place I would have done the same for Papa..had I known you were alive I could have put up with it..but when I heard you were dead my heart stopped...I wouldn't be here with you now if it's not for my frens and their efforts to bring me back to normal...it's all in the past now though....don't think about it..let's start afresh now and erase all those horrid memories in between..I only want to remember you as we spent our time under the cherry blossom tree.."

"Me too P'Kit..whenever I was down I used to go back to our tree you know..no one really comes there now a days..we were the only ones who loved that spot...

P'Kit why do you love me so much??"Kong asked after a pause, out of the blue..

Arthit looked at him strangely, "Why Tuan? Do I need a reason to love you?"he teased..

"No.....it's just that I was curious..we were strangers but you loved me so much, even when we were little..Wat did you feel as a little boy to love me so?"

"Hmmm, I don't know when my feelings started for you... But I felt possessive of you..everytime you smiled at me my heart did filps, even at that age..I wanted to make you smile and keep you close to me always..which is why I hung out with you the most..you were my happiness Tuan..my joy my everything..you still are..though you hid your identity, my heart knew you..it felt the pull of ur charms u know.." Arthit confessed..

"Aww P'Kit..you're making me blush again.."said Kong hiding his face in the pillow..

Arthit pulled him out.."Don't ever hide from me Tuan..I love seeing you blush..and I ll keep making you shy just to see these cheeks glow pink.."and pinched his cheeks again giving him a peck in the lips..

Kong held on to his lips deepening it..after a minute Arthit pulled out not wanting to make Kong uncomfortable..he was still unsure how much he was affected by Jay's actions..

Kong felt Arthit's reluctance..he knew he owed him an explanation and more than just a kiss, after all these years of being away..

"P'Kit....uhmmm...if..you..want....uhh!.." he stuttered unsure of how to begin..

"Tuan...I know you just told P'Lee the facts.." Arthit said hugging Kong.."if you want to talk about your feelings anytime, I am willing to listen.."

Tat was all it needed for Kong to open up and spill all his bottled emotions and fears since tat dreadful day..He confessed tat he hadn't told P'Wave anything about this..Though Jay hadn't raped him wat he did was the mental equivalent of it..he had used words to break him down and it had put such a deep impression on Tuan's teen mind...He poured out every feeling, every fear he had lived with since tat day..

"P'Kit I am sorry about tat night during the trip..I wasn't comparing you to Jay but somehow his thoughts popped up in my head..I wasn't repulsed by ur act,but my brain brought up his face and my body reacted on its own.."

"I understand Tuan..it's ok..I know you love me equally much..and I also know you lust after me as much as I do..I have seen you eating me with ur eyes quite often you know.." Arthit laughed..

Kong gave him a watery smile, blushing again...but his smile dropped suddenly " will I always feel that way when you touch me P'Kit?"he asked sadly..

Arthit lifted his worried face to him.."Do you trust me Tuan??"

Kong nodded "more than myself P'.." he said smiling..

"Then I promise to make you forget wat happened completely..When I am finished you will only remember my touch..and nothing of those horrible moments or words.."Arthit said.

"Thank you P'Kit..I can't wait for tat day " Kong smiled widely..

"I can start now if you want," Arthit said bending closer..

"You're tired P'Kit..let's sleep today..I am not going anywhere soon..you have all the time in the world.."Kong laughed at his eagerness..Infact Arthit's words had put butterflies in his stomach..and he couldn't wait for Arthit to ravish him..but he would wait..Arthit was tired and needed to rest...

And they snuggled together falling asleep comfortably in each other's embrace..