Desire

Btw, I feel like Cate is a mix of Sheba from notes on a scandal (the innocence, cuteness, haircut, personality etc...) but her style is more  modern (black jeans, blouse, idk)
I just feel like that but if you don't, you're free :)

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We stare at each other, again.

Suddenly I start thinking. Overthinking. It's the first time that I think of my situation and the consequences. I quickly realize that she means something to me, that no one has ever. *Fuck it* she's gonna Breack my heart and for the first time I'm ready to risk to have my first heart break. I kiss her so soft lips and as I do I move onto her lap. I feel the touch of her hands on my thighs which only excites me more. I lean into her a bit so that she leans into the couch and put her head back. As she does I take the chance and place my hand on her throat with two fingers on her jaw. And there it is, she moans into our kiss. This sound makes me want to have more of her so I bite her lip and she slightly opens her mouth. I slip my tongue into her mouth and our tongues star to play. Her hands are running my thighs up and down so I take my free hand and grab one of hers to direct them to my butt. Her other hand follows and she starts to grab onto it. Our kiss finishes because she wants to say something. "I've never done this before" she whispers a bit ashamed. The question is, ashamed of what?

I slyghtly pull back to fully look at her, still smirking. "Never done what? Kissed a woman?" I raise my eyebrow. "No... I've never kissed someone... Like this" she gets all shy "just making out like a teenaged girl, kissing someone so much younger... Kissing someone that I barely know..." the last bit whispered. "there are just so many questions in my head and so much of unsure" "hey, it's okay. No rushing here" I place my hand on her cheek and smile a warm smile. "I don't want you to be uncomfortable or anything. You are free to leave anytime or say stop." "I'm not uncomfortable...and I don't wanna go..." she answers "Than what is sweetheart?" I ask pulling her face up so that she looks me in the eyes. And she does "I'm completely comfortable. I feel so valued, accepted and wanted with you and that actually scares me a bit. I mean why would you wanna be with someone like me? Why would you desire me the way you aperently do?" she looks so destabilized. "you know what? This look; sad and shy doesn't suit you at all." I smile at her because after all she's so gorgeous "I don't want you to think like that, ever. And it's not because of the looks, even though you look hot as hell" I smirk looking her up and down "but it's the way you move, the way you talk and your gaze. It's not about age. Fuck that." I get up from her making my way to the kitchen. She stays there for a while until I start talking again that's when she followes me. "Why wouldn't I want you? That's the real question. I really like you Cate. And I have to confess eventhough I'm still young I have never said that to anyone before. And I mean it." I look at her, standing in front of me. I'm waiting to meet her gaze to be reassured of what I just said. Because eventhough I'm such a playboy and "grownup" I still have worry's.

She comes closer to me and places her hands around my neck "You really mean what you just said?" she smiles a bit. "Yes. Yes I did, I do." we stare at each other feeling lust and desire overcome us. I turn her around against the kitchen counter and kiss her passionately. I feel how she grins into the kiss as I squeeze my arms around her waist.