Am I that Unlovable? by Summer Cheng

Chapter 26

  Luka's  POV:

     It has been a week or more since I first arrived in Brazil. 

     I thought it odd that Chole had not contacted me by now.

     I went outside to the beach area for a swim.

  Perhaps, this might help some.

    I figured, what was the harm in some fun?    

  Luka's  POV:

   I twisted my ring around on my finger a few times.

   I debated on what to do with it.

  I was not exactly divorced from my wife. I could hardly annul the marriage after how long we had been married. 

  I  finished my swim and went back inside.

  I had some serious thinking to do.

   Luka's POV:

   Should I remain married to Marinette for business sake, or should I divorce her?

   If I did legally get a divorce, then she could be free to marry whoever she pleased.

   The thought did not settle as well as I thought it would.

  Sure, I only loved her as a companion.

   How was I to adjust to being single again?

 Luka's  POV:

 It had been months since any seriousness took place between Chole and me.

  I knew it never developed into more than kisses.

  Somehow, I never could bring myself to have any sexual reactions with Chole.

   I was not sure what it was that held me back.

Was it my marriage to Marinette?

   I always knew that my wife and I had a bit of chemistry in our past.

  Goodness, the first three years of our marriage were great.

    I was into her as much as she was into me.

   Luka's  POV:

  I recalled we made love almost every night the first three years of marriage.

  Then, the last two years were tense.

   Marinette was infertile and felt sad about it.

  Somehow, I felt it was my fault.

 Then, a few months ago, she did not want sex as often.

 Where did I slip up?

  Was it that obvious to her I was using her?

    Luka's POV:

   I supposed when I looked back on it  I should have set her free years ago.   

  It was wrong for me to stay in a loveless marriage on my part.

   I knew then, it was for the best.

  I drew up the papers and sent them anonymously to her.

I took every precaution she would not trace them to the exact hotel I was in now.

It was foolish enough I told her which country I would be in when I had not even told Chole.

  What was I thinking?  Why should not Chole know where I was?

    Find out more in Chapter 27

    bye, bye little owlets!

-Summer out!