Am I that Unlovable? by Summer Cheng

End of Part 1: Chapter 49

    Adrien's POV:

      I  looked at the screen, stunned.

      Ladybug appears to be upset. 

       Oh, no, I have not spoken to her since last month. Great, first Nino gets married to that silly Alya girl, then my computer crashes, and now Ladybug thinks I don't care.

        I had to let her know how much I do.

        I explained what happened and agreed to meet her in six months.  I do not think she knows who I am behind the screen. 

         I shake my head. Why did I have to be so awkward?

 The moment I met Marinette at the wedding of Nino and Alya last month, it was like I lost all sense of reality. I stared at her. I did not mean to.

          Goodness, she was so pretty. I felt drawn to her like a paper clip is to a magnet, or like a fly is to a piece of honey. Ugh, why did I feel as if I had always known her?

            I was in way over my head.

                I blushed when Ladybug typed in the part about some boy flirting with her.

               Oh, no, how embarrassing. I did that to Marinette though not Ladybug.

            Wait, how does Ladybug know about it?

            I  looked at the screen again.

            It was then I noticed she did not say a thing about Marinette, she spoke as if it had happened to her.

            Oh, my goodness, that could only mean one thing. Ladybug is Marinette. My ladybug has been her the whole time. This means I have to pretend I never saw her before so she won't suspect anything. I can't let her know I know because she does not even know I am Chat.

        I sent some silly comments in response as Chat. Phew, I hope that keeps her from finding out.

        I want her to know, but I am scared she will hate me.

       Ugh, now things are so complicated. I sabotaged everything because I already saw her as Adrien and I was the ridiculous creep that she spoke about at the wedding. I have to pretend I do not know how she feels about me.

 The strange thing is she seems relieved that Chat did not abandon her.

       The girl drove me crazy. She might be the death of me yet.

         I smile when she agrees to let me tell her a fact about me.

       So, I share two things at once. She does the same.

      I already knew she liked pink. The sapphire eyes comment took me for a spin.

       It confirms all the more she is Marinette because she has eyes that color.

         No wonder, I was drawn to her. Marinette is the one I talked to the entire time last month and today. I knew it would not be easy, but I could not break her heart. Not even if mine was breaking already.

        I  blushed. I cried. I felt so confused.

       How could I love her?   I never thought I could love again after Chole.

       Yet, here I am in love with Marinette Dupain-Cheng since she went back to her maiden name after she divorced Luka Cuffaine. I know she is a single mom. I don't care. I love her for being so wonderful. I meant it when I told her she was the best thing that ever happened to me even if I had to tell her as Chat.

          Oh, Ladybug, Marinette, I  promise to be the man you deserve. I will meet you in six months, and I will let you go if you hate me. I will savour every moment we have together in the chat room even though, Adrien Agreste is someone you have an obvious disdain for.

          How could I have known?  I did not mean to scare her.

         Marinette is a good mother, she looks lovely, and she is kind. Her smile makes me want to pass out at her feet.  Oh, boy, what have you done to me, my Ladybug?

            I got the spreadsheet ready to show my employees.

           I didn't dare tell them about Ladybug. It was none of their business.

          I did not want them to ask me a lot of questions about her.

         the story continues in Part 2: Chapter 50

       Until then, bye-bye, little owlets!

 Summer out!