JOYCE
Usually kung may bagong costumer, sa right side table sila nakaupo lalo na kung coffee break ang Seminary at offices. Today it was different. Dahil siguro wala pang tao at may space sa gitna. Two men came in and seated on the center table. They like in their mid forties. Naka black suit and ties silang dalawa na parang mga matataas na tao sa lipunan. Baka may business sa malapit. Sa isip isip ko. Kilala namin lahat ng mga costumer na pumapasok sa Cafe, kaya alam ko kung nakadawi na minsan o bago lang. Ngayon ko lang silang dalawa nakita. Seryoso at pawang hindi pwede mabiro ang mga mukha.
Akmang lalapit na ako ng nagsalita ang isang lalaki.
"Miss two black please!"
Sabi nya na halos hindi man lang tumingin at agad na bumalik sa pakikipag usap. The other man face was seems irritated and the way his brows meet it was like naiirita sya o may kinaiinisan. The other guy just keep on nodding na parang nag a agree lang siya sa boss niya.
Malamang tama ang hinala ko.
After I brewed their coffee agad ko itong dinala sa kanila. Dahan dahan kong nilapag sa mesa nila. They seem to don't care at me, not like other costumer ngingiti at makipag usap sa akin kahit saglit.
"Enjoy your coffee sir!"
masigla kong bati at parang wala lang silang narinig. I went back to the counter at nagmasid habang naghihintay ng oras. As what I can see wala silang plano pang umalis.
Maybe at this point mauupo sila Johan sa kabilang table.
A minutes later bumukas na nga ang gate at naglabasan na sila Johann. They stopped as they saw that the table was already occupied. For some kind of weird reason the two men also stood up and both party looked at each other.
I was about to approached the boys but the next thing happened shocked me. Bumalik sa loob ng Seminary ang iba at naiwan si Johann at lumapit sa dalawang lalaki. Before he seated he glimpsed at me and smiled and looked down putting his hand on the table. The other man say something to his colleague and he stood up and left the two alone. Both faces were serious and the way they mouthed their words it looks like they were arguing. I wanted to come close to eardrops or something but apparently it will be stupid and obvious.
"Masama ang nakikinig sa usapan ng iba.."
Tatay voiced out behind me. I turned to him and jokingly stuck my tongue out.
"That's his Father."
He whispered.
What? Nagulat ako sa info ni Tatay and honestly I didn't think of Johan as a son of some rich man. So kung mayaman sila bakit siya nagpari eh pwede naman businessmam di ba? And why it looks like Johann was afraid of him? Ewan. Pakialamera na naman ako.
We knew each other for a couple of years but he didn't share his personal life to me. Hindi rin naman ako Nagtatanong.
Maya maya pa they both look in my direction and his Dad stared at me for a moment before turning back to Johann again and say something. Johan shook his head then his Dad stood up and furiously walk out the door.
Johann leaned his head on the table and repeatedly bumped his head on purpose. Kung ano man yong pinag usapan nila, hindi maganda ang kinalabasan and for whatever reasons na tumingin silang dalawa sa akin hindi ko gusto yon.
Agad ko siyang nilapitan at tinanong.
"Are you okay?"
He looked up on me and directly stare into my eyes. Napakisap mata ako bago nakalaban ng tingin din sa kanya.
"I'll ask you again.Is it wrong to fall in love?"
and my mouth just dropped open. Bakit kaya magtatanomg ng ganun? Is he referring to love of God or opposite love?
It isn't the right time for a joke and his face telling me he isn't joking.
"Hindi ba nakasulat sa biblya ang sagot?"
sabi ko nalang na agad na nagpangiti sa kanya. Ang totoo hindi ko rin alam ang sagot o kung alam ko man ayaw kong sa akin manggaling.
"I think alam ko na ang sagot."
He said as his face lightens and before I knew it he's already walking out the door.
I watched him disappeared on my sight. Giving me so much confuses. My mind digging something in my memory but I chose to snobbed it.
Ang gulo. What did his Dad and him talked about at napatanong siya ng ganun kaseryoso? Talaga lang ha, love? Anu yon nainlove siya at hindi niya alam kung tama yon o mali? Pwede ba yon? Kanino naman?
At bakit nila ako tiningnan pareho na nagpagalit yata lalo sa Tatay nya? Ganun kasama ang mukha ko?
Kung iisipin ko lahat baka tuluyan na akong mababaliw.
Strange lang ang lahat dahil nga walang seminarista ang tumambay sa Cafe. Tahimik lang kami buong maghapon hanggang sa pagsara.
Tatay on the other hand, refuse to talk. He settled me with his meaningful stares and shoulder up. I know him too well that I decided to let it be.
I went home confused about whats going on. The question pop out on my mind. Is it wrong to fall in love? Masama nga ba?
In his situation and if he's not referring to Gods love of course masama yon. Sabi nila. But for ordinary people it was just a normal feeling. Yet, are they not ordinary people? Pare pareho lang naman ang human organs ng tao ah. Katulad ng puso ng mga ordinary human, ganun din ang sa kanila. So now, how I am supposed to answer the question? Am ready to answer it?
Hindi pa nga ba talaga?
Digging the answer from my brain I end up thinking about him and remembering his face frowning as his Dad left him there.
What's really going on? That's what I need to know.
BINABASA MO ANG
LOVING A SEMINARIAN
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