JOYCE
When all of your dreams turns to reality the only thing you could do is to embrace it with all your heart.
Who have thought that after how many years of trying to stop my feeling we will end up engage.
They were right. When love comes it can't be stop. Magmamahal at magmamahal ka sa kahit anung aspeto pa, sa kahit anong rason pa at sa kahit anong kamalian pa. Is it really wrong? From the start it wasn't intended, it came and all of the sudden it grew deep. Nobody has an ability to stop it. Nobody. Maybe what we have started complicated. He's life destined to be with God and it just too hard to oppressed. God knows how much I ignored it. Yet, He also the reason why Johann is now mine. And whatever the consequences of this I am willing to face and fight for it.
Yesterday and the many days before it was kind of roller coaster. I thought I almost lost him. But he never give up . He never get tired of proving me I deserve to be love. Lahat ng mga sakit na naranasan ko noon simula pa ng nagising akong mag isa,inalis nya lahat. Pinuno niya ang napakalaking gap sa puso ko. Hinilom nya lahat ng pag alinlangan ng loob ko. His love is much greater than my fears and I love him more for it.
Siguro nga ang pagkawala ni Mommy and Daddy ay isang napakalaking blessing para sa akin. Para maging matatag ako at maging matapang.
And whatever this life may take us I am more willing to do it as long as we were together.
I studied the ring on my finger,crazily smiling. Totoo nga ang kasabihan na kung para sayo para sayo at eto para talaga siya sa akin. Yeah, sorry up there if I won this fight I know You are happy for me too.
"so naniniwala ka na ba na totoo lahat to?"
Nagulat ako ng bigla syang sumulpot sa likod. Looking so handsome as always. I turned to him for a brief kiss giggling with my thought.
"Not yet...but getting there...what are you doing here?"
Lumayo siya ng bahagya at inabot ang maliit na box sa akin. Regalo.
"again?"
Taas kilay kong tanong. He smirked and seated on the corner.
"galing yata sa suitor mo..nakita ko lang kanina sa bahay mo,akala ko kasi andon ka. Im fairness ha guapo nya ngayon..."
Suitor?
Tiningnan ko ang box.
Jeff.
"baliw...kaibigan ko lang siya at alam mo yon."
I pouted. Taas balikat nya akong nginitian na kunwari di sya naniniwala. I placed the box on the counter at lumapit sa kanya.
"nagseselos ka no?"
"no!!"
"yes..."
"What?mas guapo ako don.."
tumawa ako. Nagseselos nga sya. Gosh. Ang ganda ko.
"Tama..at mahal kita..ikaw at ikaw lang. "
Sabi ko sabay upo sa tabi niya. I reached for his arm and pressed him closer to me. He then kissed me on the forehead.
"Mahal na mahal din kita but please ayoko sa kanya ..okay?"
Tumango nalang ako. Ayoko rin naman sa kanya no.
"okay.."
He then embraced me tighter. Tatay walked in and groaned as he saw us. Acting dusgusted. I laughed and stucked out my tounge to him.
"You two need to get married soon if you want me to be there.
" of course you need to be there..."
then I realized he's leaving in three days.
"You will go home...promise me.."
Nagkibit balikat sya.
"I can't say.."
Hindi pwedeng wala sya. Walang kasal kung walang Bert na andun. Who will going to bring me to the altar?
"Tay..."
Ngumisi siya at nagkunwaring walang narinig. I know he's teasing me but thinking na wala siya baka hindi magiging kumpleto ang kasal.
Gosh!! Kasal?Really? Hahahaha.
"fine...!"
I pout and turn to look Johann.
"then forget about the wedding."
Napatayo si Johann sa sinabi ko.
"what?"
He said almost yelling.
napatawa nalang si Tatay habang kunwaring sinusuntok ni Johann ang mesa.
"You better convinced him.."
sabi ko sa kanya. He then ran to Tatay side and tightly held his arm.
"Ako bahala sa ticket papunta at pabalik..."
"iba talaga pag daming pera."
Panunukso pa ni Tatay.
Ngumisi nalang ako habang pinapanood silang nagpapalitan ng biro.
Yes. This is my only family and I am contented.
Marami mang kumplikado sa buhay namin. His parents were separated. Had an awful past. My Parents left me for a reason. I live alone. Tatay fairytale wasn't a typical happy ending. Everything was not perfect. But we are all happy with what we have. Wherever Mom and Dad right now I know they are proud of me.
The wedding will not going to happen soon and Johann is willing to wait. After all in the end it will be me and him.
Slowly, I accept the fact that Tatay won't no longer be there for me anytime, at least I have Johann. And God is with us in our journey. Sino ba naman ang mag aakala na ibibigay pa niya sa akin si Johann? Di ba? I think ganun talaga, I think if love is enough to change a life then God will always know the right time for it.
Kahit anu pa mang unos at balakid ang dadating. Kahit sino pa ang mag balak na magsabi na mali ang pagmamahalan namin. Kahit ulit ulitin pa ng tadhanang paglaruan ang panahon. Kahit subukin man niya ulit na kunin siya sa akin. Lalaban ako. Kakayanin ko. Dahil mahal ko siya at sapat na ang ilang taong pagiging mahina ko. Sapat na para matuto akong ipaglaban ang nararamdaman ko. Sa mga tao at pati na rin sa sarili ko. This is my heart,this is my life and I am free to make a choice for myself. He's now mine cause I chose my happiness and my life.
THE END.
Author's Note
Hey guys..I'll be posting an epilogue (I'm thinking of the wedding day or the present time,what do you think?) and important details soon. I know hindi details by details ang naisulat q so for those who wanted to know anything about the whole story post a comment or message me. thanks.thanks.
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