JOYCE
Siguro nga sadyang hindi ko kayang mawala siya. Siguro nga mas magiging masaya ako na andito siya sa tabi ko . Na handa akong harapin kahit sino pa as long na alam ko na magkasama kami at kapwa namin ipaglalaban ang isat isa. Sa Daddy nya man o sa mga taong nagsasabing mali ang lahat ng nangyayari. If this happiness i felt was wrong then maybe I'd rather choose to be wrong after all.
Besides who has the right to judge us?Oh well. they have the freedom to do so or whatever.
Johann become my light. He's the one who showed me the past I forcedly forgot. Slowly everything keep coming back on my memories again. Why I end up being alone and why my Parents decided to leave me.
On how it shocked me waking up without them.
But anything happened for a reason and the reason why they left is a matter of life and death. I can understand now. I slowly realize that in this life you need to risk to keep the people you love be away from danger and Mom and Dad risk me. In a good way.
They left. Tatay Bert came. Johann came. I think it is still worth it. Having them in my life is extraordinary. Though I know couple of days from now Tatay will no longer be with me and even it is painful to let go it is my responsibility to give him the happiness he longed for so long. He deserved this.
But right now I need to face the reality. I need to be a woman in Johann life. Even my shaking foot is stopping me, I need to hold Johann hand tight until his Dad face came up.
"Relax...he won't eat. "
sabi niya habang naghihintay kami sa sala ng bahay ng Daddy nya. Ako ang may idea nito. Gusto kong gawin to para sa ikakatahimik ng loob q. Natatakot ako pero kailangan kong maging matapang. Kailangan kong humarap sa katotohanan. Para sa akin at para kay Johann.
"Yeah..it's easy for you to say.."
"Cmon...I'm here and whatever Dad will going to say I will still be here.. You understand that?"
sagot nya titig sa mata ko. I nodded. At ease with his word.
Maya maya pa his dad arrived. Nasa business attire pa rin siya na parang aattend ng meeting. His face was stern but his eyes was relax. I breathed hard ready myself to face him. Johann let go of me .
"dad..."
sabi niya sabay halik sa daddy nya.
"So your friend is here too..nice to see you again. .?"
"Joyce sir..."
sabay abot ng kamay. Ngumiti siya. Ang kaba ko ay parang isang along kasintaas ng building. Ewan. Kung sampalin niya man ako ngayon siguro tatanggapin ko nalang.
"Joyce.. yeah...so what's bring you two here son?"
agad niyang baling kay Johann. They were exchanging stares like they weren't family related at all.
"Aalis na ako sa seminary Dad..I already made up my mind.."
all of the sudden his Dad reaction changed. Serious or furious. I can't tell.
He walked papunta sa isang wall ng sala nila. Doon nakalagay lahat ng pictures ni Johann at ng Mama nya. Paano nagkahiwalay ang ganito kasayang pamilya? Sa isip ko lang.
Ang buntong hininga ng daddy niya ay lalong lumalim iniisa isa tingnan lahat ng mga litrato don. Johann held me tightly to ease my nervousness.
'I'm good.."
I whispered.
Naghintay kami sandali hanggang sa umupo ang daddy nya sa sofang nakaharap sa amin.
"Ironic son.."
he started.
"almost 3 years ago we were in the same situation what is different now is you brought your reason with you. I'm wondering how amazing this girl for making you change your mind over and over again. "
Hindi ko naiintindihan ang ibig niyang sabihin. Hinintay ko na magsalita si Johann pero wala siyang sinabi maliban sa mas lalong pag higpit niya sa hawak ng kamay ko.
"Well, I think its time for me to give up and let you decide for yourself. After all after I saw those pictures I already knew that wala ng makakapigil sa inyo. "
Nakahinga ako ng malalim. Gusto kong tumalon at yakapin si Johann.
"what pictures.?"
suddenly i realized na wala pala siyang alam.
"somebody sent me a picture of you both enjoying the roller coaster and balloon..."
his dad answered looking at me.
"Who sent it?Wait..alam mo to?"
johann asked me. I nervously nodded.
"so this is why you dumped me?".
I nodded again.
"and you don't have a plan na sabihin sa akin?"
hindi na ako tumango sa halip paawa akong ngumiti. Johann shook his head wanting to get mad but couldn't. Instead he reached my head and scattered my hair.
"ang gulo mo..."
his dad smile looking at us which is good.
"so sino nagpadala ng picture?"
"i dont know. "
his dad replied.
"gail..."
Johann murmured.
Yeah.That bitch.
"It doesn't matter I think. Alam naman natin ngayon na hindi na yon importante. "
sabi ng Dad nya. Napaisip ako . Kaya ba ayaw niyang pag usapan para hindi malaman ni Johann na inutusan niya si Gail na puntahan ako sa bahay?
"Yes dad. I promise you dad this decision won't put our family on shame again.. I love this girl at hindi ako magiging masaya kahit kailan kung hindi siya ang makakasama ko.."
Hindi ito sumagot. Sa halip niyakap niya si Johann.
"I like her...nong una pa lang.You remember I told you to do the right thing?Im waiting for you to go for it but I guess you get the wrong message. "
baling nya sa akin.
Im confuse.
"Is your Mon know about this?"
"she will..."
"the go now bago pa niya malaman na mas nauna kong sinabi sa akin. Go tell her.."
Yinakap siya ulit ni Johann.
"thanks again dad.."
"so Joyce welcome to the family.."
sabay abot ng kamay nya.
"thank you sir.."
"Tito Jack.."
"Tito"
mahina kong sabi.
Tito.Tito.Tito.
I'm dying.
BINABASA MO ANG
LOVING A SEMINARIAN
Romance(Ongoing Editing) We choose the love we think you deserve even it takes us to sin. What would you risk to fight against forbidden love? Would you choose your faith or would you follow your heart? Join Joyce and Johann in their one of a kind love st...
