Approaching Her - Billie Eilish

Chapter 4

It turned out it was Julia, she wanted to meet me at the cafeteria, the one next to the art gallery Michelle was talking about. I don't even know what it is, is it a date? It really hurts me seeing her with Billie, but she flirted as we hanged out yesterday.

I get the address real quick and keep on watching some Netflix to distract myself.

I suddenly hear Billie slamming her door again, I LITERALLY KNOW WHEN SHE LEAVES, JUST FOR THE SINGLE FACT THAT SHE USES TO DESTROYS THAT POOR FUCKING DOOR!

She gets into her car and leaves really quickly. Where the fuck is she going again?

As I keep on watching the movie I get a call from my mom, it got really long, we talked about a lot of things, but I haven't told her anything about Billie. I don't want her to stress out or make her worry for some people that can't take me. Billie just keeps ignoring me, I thought I'd never say that about someone, but that's a good thing. I guess...

It's already 2 pm, I have to meet Julia at 2.30 pm, I eventually get ready, i put some chill clothes on and start driving to the cafeteria. It isn't a long drive, but I still don't want to walk, I somehow for some reasons feel very tired. I would blame that bitch Billie for it, but sadly it's not her fault this time.

As I got there I see Julia at the terrace, waiting. I also see Billies car in front of the art gallery building. Is she in there?

I walk up to Julia. "Hi, Christine!" She says on a happy tone. "Hey Julia, so, what's up?" I say while sitting down. "So..." she got cut off by the waitress. "What would you like to have?" She asks, as she suddenly starts looking straight at me, her face seems very familiar to me, but I don't know where to pick it from.

"I'd like to have a simple milk cafe, but no sugar." Julia says. "Me either, but mine with sugar, please." I assert crossing my legs. "Ok, I'll be there in a moment." She mumbles and leaves.

"So, how's your day been." She asks, looking me straight in the eyes. "I-, it was fine, I chilled, got some ...calls, I-, it was fine.." I say stuttering, WHY THE FUCK AM I STUTTERING?

"Mine...it's been fine. You know, I've been thinking a lot about you lately, it's just, I really wanted to see you today...and, I wanted you to know it." She says somehow nodding and smiling. She got a bit nervous, I've noticed that by seeing her starting to play around with her rings. "Look, let's talk about this somewhere else, where no one disturbs us." I mumble. "Ok." She adds nervously.

The waitress came with the order. After that we decide to hang out on the beach, it was just so wonderful, the perfect timing for the sunset.

We start to talk about earlier.

"So, about earlier...I really wanna know what you think about it." she says somehow anxious."You see...it's...I-, ...look, how am I supposed to believe there's something serious. I just-, you and Bil-" she cuts me off. "There's nothing between me and Billie, you got it? It's just...she has needs, I do either, but sometimes things tend to escalate. She just uses to tease me a lot, and- sometimes I fall for it or can't stand it. She's like a literal sex animal, no matter what's happening if she wants head she has to get it" she says. I got butterflies for no reason as she said that last part.

"I was a little drunk either, I was at a pool party literally 20 minutes before meeting you guys, besides, there's just some shit going on in her life right now, trust me, I know her for a really long time. She just... let's say, maybe likes to get head a lot, she's not that kind of emotional person, It usually doesn't means anything for both of us." she says nodding, playing with the sand. "What do you mean by getting head?" I ask by cutting her off. "Oh, you don't know about that yet... You'll eventually find out later." She adds having me confused.