Approaching Her - Billie Eilish

Chapter 18

I wake up, she's still next to me and it's very dark. It's pretty cold and my leg hurts really bad. I put my hand on her thigh, waking her up.

"Billie...?" I ask on a soft voice putting my hand on her leg, shaking it harder. "Baby?" I ask again. She opens her eyes. "Yes?" She asks rubbing her eyes, then looking around. "I'm cold." I say. She looks worried at me.

"Oh poor baby, come here." She says hugging me, trying to cover as much of my body as she can. "Help is on the way, keep fighting. We'll be soon in our room, where's warm, i'm gonna keep you in my a-arms...Just know i love you!" she says stuttering, whispering in my ear, putting her forehead on my shoulder, trying to keep me still.

"Billie...what's that..." i say pointing to a shadow, that looks just like a BEAR. "I know..., i saw it before you, just don't move, baby. Just stay still." She whispers very worried and scared. It's still noticeable, even tho she tries to hide it. "I'm scared!" I say, my eyes starting to become teary. "I know baby, just don't move. I'm here." She says still having her forehead on my shoulder and her hands around my neck.

I could feel the scariness on her face while she notices the bear coming towards us. "Baby?.." i say closing my eyes. "Yes?" She asks silently. "Just run, you need to save your own life!" I say starting to cry, very silently. "No, don't say that again, i could never do that!" She says trying to calm me down.

The bear is six feet away from us. "Let's try to be silent, don't move, play as if you're dead. He won't attack you." She teaches me very silently, sitting stoned. I do as she says. I feel her hands shaking. I'm scared for her more than for me. I close my eyes trying to look as dead as possible holding her hand under the blanket.

I feel him sniffing on my feet up to my knee, then my stomach. i'm stoned, i feel like a single wrong move would end it all. I fell him sniffing along my chest to my jaw, right to my nose. A tear is falling down my face. I feel the bear's nose on my face, i feel his tongue on my cheek, licking the tear. he growls. I feel my pulse intensifying. Im terrified right now.

I hold Billies hand very tight, i feel her's holding me tighter. His nose goes slowly on my left cheek. If he's gonna open his mouth, i'll be literally death. The second thing i was thinking about right before literally feeling like dying, was that now, that i have Billie, i won't spend the time with her, i won't have wonderful moments with her, i won't have her marrying me or helping me rising our children. (i first was like "childs" if you know what i'm talking about 🤡)

The bear moves his nose right to Billies hair. I slowly open my left eye looking at him. He's licking her hair. No matter how scared and terrified i am, i literally had a 'bruh!' moment right now.

I see Billie closing her eyes really tight, with tears going down her face. The bear growls one more time really loud. Suddenly i hear something and see lights. There are people coming. I feel like having a cold shower right now.

The bear gets scared and leaves running, but as he runs he leaves a scratch on Billies shin. She gasped out of pain. "FUCK!" She says putting her hand over the area. "Oh god Billie! are you ok?" I ask her. "Yes Chris, be careful with your ankle. oh my lord, i thought we were gonna die!" She says putting her forehead in her palm.

"It's ok Billie, we're good." I say slowly caressing her back. She hugs me and kisses me. She puts her forehead on mine, putting her palms on my cheeks. "I thought i was gonna lose you, love." She says wiping up my tears with her thumbs. Tears were going down her face.

There were four people. Two helpers and Markus with Julia. "Where's Mi? Is she ok?" i ask Markus knowing she's pregnant and is alone, as long as Markus is here. "Yes Chris, Zoe is taking care of her. Oh God! Was that a bear?" Markus tells coming down hugging us. I start to cry, i just realize in what a dangerous situation i was. They help me up after checking with the contusion. It's not that bad. Is just a sprained ankle, it still hurts very bad.

We finally arrive at the motel. Julia was silent the entire time. It's 10.18 pm when we arrive to our room. I got a bandage and was told to rest. Billie is in my room. Julia now knows all about it, she's still shocked, i could tell.

Billie bought her suitcase to my room. She was searching for something as i rest on the bed. "How's your ankle doing, baby?" She asks me while sitting down, looking at it, softly touching it. "It's better." i say smiling. "How's your leg?" I add. "Is doing good, it bled a little but it's fine. i got a little bondage wrapped around" She says. She lays down on the bed, right next to me.

"I was so scared for you." I say while asking for her hand to hold mine. "Love, you don't have to, i was fine, i'm fine." She says with a soft pending face.

"I know...but i was just scared i'd not get to spent moments and moments with you. Just...make memories." i say while looking at her. She takes my hand and kisses it softly. "Listen, now that i've found you, i won't let you go. I'm the type of person who never really falls in love. I fell a single time before, and Julia destroyed it. I've not felt that much love lately, maybe the last few years. Now that i've found you, i will protect you and won't let you go. No matter how many Julias would try to stop me from having you." She says coming over to kiss me. She puts her hand on my check, while being propped on her elbow on the bed.

"Try to get it, i love you, i truly love you!" She says. "You tired now, let's go to sleep." She adds. She hugs me from behind. "Thank you for everything." I tell her. "Thank YOU!" she says kissing my forehead. we finally fall asleep after a short while.

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I wake up, i look around, Billie isn't there but i hear voices on the hallway. It's Billies voice. I try to get up, even tho it hurts it doesn't hurt as much as it did yesterday. I try to walk. She walks into the room. "You awake! Be careful!!" She says coming towards me, helping me. "It's ok, i got it." I say going to the bathroom. "Who was that?" I ask while washing my face, the bathroom door is open. "Mi. She said we'll drive home tonight. She doesn't feel really well and because of your ankle." She says being propped on the door frame. "She shouldn't do it for me. I'm good!" I say. "It's not just for you, like i said, she's not feeling that well neither." she says worried. "That's on being pregnant, i know how it is, i was 12 when my mom gave birth to my little sister." I say wiping my face with a towel.

"You have siblings?" She asks surprised. "I have just a sister. She's seven." I say walking out of the bathroom. "That's cute! I love children!" She says smiling. I stop and look at her. I smirk. She realizes what i mean. "So you wouldn't mind having your own kids?" I ask coming towards her, placing my hands around her neck. "Sure not." She says smiling, pulling me into a kiss. She puts her forehead on mine. "I do want you to be the mother of my future kids." She says smiling. I just hug her and put my head on her chest, considering the fact that she's taller than me. She caresses my hair softly. "Now let's go eat something." She says.

———— Arriving at Highland park ————-

We finally arrived, the way here was even more longer than expected, just for the fact that Billie was the only one driving. She slowed down as she got more and more tired. I was awake as well, i didn't want to let her alone. I kept talking to her to keep her focused.

Julia took all of her stuff, she still doesn't talk to me, God knows what's going on with her right now. i thought she got it. I tried to talk to her, but it won't work, she just ignores me.

Billie told me she's gonna come visit me tomorrow. She didn't knew Julia was going to take her stuff now, at 3am in the morning and leave. I don't blame her tho. There already were five or six weeks of relationship. It's not that much, but cheating o her with her ex, is not the best thing someone could ever do. And it hurts.

i'm planning on uploading more. I feel inspired 🤧💀