Approaching Her - Billie Eilish

Chapter 21

I look around the room, there's a photo of her, two mens and a women. They look very alike, probably it's her family. She also has a keyboard and a easel in the corner of the room. Her room smells like ...watermelon and mint but also vanilla. I can't really describe it. She has a notebook on her office, right next to her MacBook.

I take it in my hands. I don't open it, i won't like people to go through my very privacy like that. I put it back, but a little note felt out of it. It looks like an appointment to a doctor. It's for today...she told me she was over to her mom. Why would she lie to me like that? Am i not supposed to know whatever she's going through? Maybe i'm just to overprotective. I put it back.

I go into the kitchen. I open the fridge, a lot of vegetables, like A LOT. On the fridge door was a list with hours and little numbers in parentheses following by some letters. I really don't get it, what's that for?

She suddenly, comes in from literally nowhere.

"Baby, i forgo-, oh you're already hungry." She says coming towards me with a smirk on her face. "Somehow..." i say closing the fridge door. "If you don't like what i have you can order something as well." She says smiling giving me a 100$ bill. "It's ok. I was just reading... something." I say with a smile, covering my confusion. "You were looking at the lunch timetable?" She says propping herself on the kitchen counter. "Yes...but what's up with the numbers and the letters." I ask with a serious look. "Oh...i'm taking some meds, nothing important." She mumbles with a sniff. "Meds for what? Sorry for being that invasive, but...i'm worried." i say walking towards her. "It's ok, i understand." She says. "It's just...i suffer from some unnoticeable mental illnesses, like they are not even mental illnesses, not a big deal anyways." She says cleaning her throat becoming very serious.

"I need to go now. Like i said, the-, yeah, you can order something if you're hungry." she says stuttering, putting the money in the counter, leaving. "Billie!" I call her as she takes her purse and walks to the entry door. "Don't take it as a invasive thing, i'm just worried about you..." I say. "I know, it's fine." She says on a very serious tone opening the entry door, leaving.

What did i say?

I look out the window as she leaves. Did i've made her angry? I don't know...i feel like shit right now, at the same time i guess it's normal to be worried about her, i do love and care about her a lot! I finally go to bed, her bed. I just wanna smell her perfume on the bedsheets. I try to fall asleep, but i just can't, i just have that guilty feeling in me. Maybe i should call her.

"Hey, baby!" I say on a normal tone. "Hey." She says. "everything's fine?" she asks. "Yes. I just wanted to check on you..." i say. "I'm fine"

she starts telling me about how the night went, it doesn't looks at all like she would be angry with me about something. "I already miss you." I say breaking a moment of silence. "I do too, baby." She says on a baby voice. "I really wanna see you right now." She adds as i don't say anything. "Me too." She hangs up. She calls me on FaceTime.

"Here you areee." She says laughing. I laugh back. Somethings odd, it's very silent. "Where are you? Why is everything so silent?" I ask. "I'm outside. I took a break." She says, a street lump was right behind her. "I should have know, it's a street lump just behind you, me dumbass." I say. "Wait...what?" She asks. "There's a street lump...right behind. it's away now!" I say scared. "There's no street lump, baby, what are you talking about?" She asks as she looks behind her. She freezes. She looks back at the camera. "there's a women walking around with a fucking flashlight in her hand." She says with her eyes wide open while ironically smiling. "Go away, go inside!" I tell her. "Yes, imma go now." She says while getting up. She looks away, she then looks back at the camera.

"She's strange." She says laughing. I could already see the lights from the club projecting on her face. "Ok, i'm inside. I have to hang up now, take care and know that i love you, no matter what. It looks like...you never really know what could happen." She says in a very emotionally way. "You for real safe? Why so emotional" I ask. "Yes, baby, i love you. Take care of yourself! I just feel like telling you that." She says and hangs up. That's VERY odd.

I finally go to sleep. The night goes by. As i wake up it's 9.52am. I look around the room, Billie is nowhere to be found. I even look around the house...nothing. Her car isn't even here. I text her, she won't receive the messages. I try to call her, she doesn't respond.

I'm starting getting worried, i call every common friend we have, no one knows anything about her. Strangely enough, i get a call from Julia.

"Hi...julia?" I ask. "Hey, Chris. How are you?" She asks on a calm tone. "I just woke up." I say. "Look, i wanted to talk to you about what happened, and i would gladly accept your apologies." She says on a honest tone. "Girl...i didn't even apologize to you for nothing." I say irritated. I'm just worried about Billie, what if something happened to her?

That's the shortest one ever, but i just don't feel like writing, i'm not in the best state of mind right now. Anyways, thanks for 1.4k❤️ Love you guys.

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