I'll be yours

Chapter 23

"Luke I'm-" I ran towards him, wrapping my arms around his waist tightly.
He left his arms limply at his sides.
"Get out" he spat.
"Luke hold on it wasn't her" Calum motioned to me.
"You can leave with her then cal" he pushed me off of him and to the ground.
"Don't fucking touch her!" Calum got closer to Luke's face.
"You'd think you'd follow your own shitty advice" Luke yelled his fists clinching at his sides.
This is very bad.
"Luke why did you even care about her. Why'd you even do it" Calum yelled
Do what?
"You know it could have been very different Luke. Any one of us could've put our numbers in her phone and it would've gone down the same way okay?" Calum yelled through clenched teeth.
Luke backed up and opened the door.
"You two need to leave"
I stood up.
"No this is my room too"
"No it's fine we'll go" I said surprising everyone. I kissed Luke's cheek as I made my way past him. "I love you"
He stayed silent.
Ashton flashed me a sympathetic set of eyes as I made my way past him.
"You're a dick Luke" Calum yelled as the door was shut in his face.
"I'm never getting drunk again" I said as Calum and I made our way outside.
"I wish I regretted it" he said quietly.
"I regret it" I replied
"I should. He's been my best friend for years, and I don't feel guilty."
"How can you not feel guilty"
I asked, disgust showing a little too much in my voice.
"Because I like you a lot Lia" he said frustration clear in his.
"Well stop" I said a tear running down my face.
"Hey come here" he turned to me, pulling me into his chest. I let him do it too. I let him hold me because I didn't care anymore. I had lost Luke.
"He loves you Lia, he will forgive you" he kissed the top of my head.
"What about you?" I asked pulling away and wiping my wet eyes.
"I don't know, I might have to stay away for a while except for shows and stuff. But I know you love Luke and you two need to be together" he said. I know he had more emotion than he was holding back.
I was ruining this band. I loved all four of these boys and I was tearing them apart.
I spent years obsessing over the reality of their friendship and here I was wrecking it to pieces.
"I'm so sorry Calum" I said hugging him once more.
"It's okay Lia, just calm down and go talk to him, I'll hang back here" he said releasing me from his arms and walking Away.
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"Luke I know I fucked up but let me explain please"
I yelled through the bathroom door. Ashton had finally let me in after 20 minutes of sitting in the hallway.
"Luke" I sighed
"Fuck Lia okay"
He stood and abruptly opened the door pulling me into the bathroom.
"You have 3 minutes to convince me we need to be together or you're out for good" he said. His eyes were puffy and he looked tired. I'm so sorry Luke. I thought.
"Okay" I sat on the side of the tub.
"I'm sorry okay. Calum and I were drunk and we said stupid shit and we made out. The. I felt awful because he told me he liked Me" I said in one breath.
Luke nodded for me to continue.
"But Luke I was empty before us and I know that sounds cliche but when we met I knew that's what I needed was you. And I've always wanted to figure you out and now I am finally. I need you so much that I left my life for you. But that's no excuse for what I did and It will suck. But if you need us to be done I can accept that."
He looked at the ground and shook his head.
"Lia I need you too. I need you to not be one of them. I need you to be real. And not a stupid fan who wants to get at all of the guys. Please can you just fucking be that for me." He yelled. It was quite scary actually.
It was the first time Luke had yelled at me. His veins in his neck Strained and his teeth were clenched. He projected his fists through the drywall of the bathroom behind him.
"I wish I didn't love you so goddam much." He screamed.
He pulled me up and kissed me. It wasn't sweet and tender like Luke's usual kiss. It was angry and dominant.
"Thank you" I sighed in relief as he wrapped his arms around me tightly and I buried my head into his chest.