I'll be yours

Chapter 24

Luke finally let Calum come back to the hotel at 4 am that night and they hadn't talked for 2 days. I mean they were hardcore silent treatment. No words said at all. We were leaving LA the next day though, so I hoped that the road would leave the memories of what had happened behind us.
I woke up and rolled over to see Luke's sleeping face. It wasn't its usual small smile, now it was always in a frown. I felt so sorry for the pain I had caused.
The reality of it was, he should have forgotten about me the day I decided to leave with Andy. It would have saved him from so much hurt If he had done that.
"Good morning love" he whispered as his eyes fluttered open.
"Morning, are you ready for the show tonight?" I said quickly, trying to avoid speaking my thoughts.
"Yup" he stated simply.
"Good"
I pulled the covers off of me and stood up.
"Wanna come shower with me?" I asked quietly, gathering my clothes for the day.
"No I'm good" He rejected
"Oh okay" I was a little surprised.

As the hot water hit my face, my thoughts trailed back to Luke. He wasn't himself. And I couldn't tell whether or not I should say something.
"Could you hurry up" a muffled Michael came through the door.
I ignored his comment and thought about him and Elliot. I wondered if they were together yet.
After several straight minutes of furious pounding on the bathroom door. I did my hair and put on my leggings and red and white flannel.

"Finally" Michael sighed as I opened the door.
I texted Elliot.
Me: your boyfriends a real dick
Elliot: if only any of that message were true.

I laughed and found my way back to Luke.
He was still laying in bed. Only watching tv this time. I crawled onto his lap and shut off the tv. "What the hell Lia" he snapped.
"I'm sorry, i just wanted to kiss you" i said leaning into him.
"I think you've done enough of that this week" he shot, taking the remote from my hands.
I deserved it. But it still kind of hurt. So I did what any irrational 18 year old would do and I threw the remote on the ground and kissed him. Hard.
"That was nice now may I have the remote back"
I replied with another kiss. This one softer. But still somewhat aggressive.
He moved his hands go my waist and I moved my body so my legs were on either side of his.
Just as I started to feel his hand travel up my back I stopped.
"You suck" he said shifting awkwardly under the covers. After I climbed off of him.
"Here's your remote" I smiled handing him the device off of the ground.
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Luke and I sat like that for a good half an hour. We didn't talk and we didn't look at each other. The only contact we had was when he moved his arm up to lay it down behind his head and it brushed my shoulder on its way up. But it was quickly followed by an apology. I didn't know what I expected from Luke after what I did to him. But for some reason I expected him to be the same Luke. I expected him to be happy on the outside. And even though he had told me blatantly before that he wasn't happy. I didn't want to accept that reality.
"So how do you think the show is going to be tonight?" I brought the conversation back to the most exciting thing I could think of.
"We've talked about this concert at least 7 times today" he sighed heavily.
"Luke why aren't you talking to me." I asked knowing the answer to my obvious question.
"Lia, I'm really trying to be okay. Can we please not talk about this." His eyes were glued on the tv.
"I thought when I explained you understood" I looked down at my hands.
"You can't expect it to be the same Lia" his fists were clenching at his sides.
"I want it to be though" I swung my legs over the edge of the bed and made my way over to his side.
"Well It fucking won't be okay?" He raised his voice.
"Okay" I backed down. I deserved this anyway.
"Don't play the victim Lia. You knew what you were doing and you did it anyway."
I sat quietly listening to his anger.
"We were fine again and then you had to be a whore Lia you had to fuck it up."
"So why don't you leave Luke?" I spat
"You're the one on tour with me" he points out.
"Do you want me to leave?"
"If I wanted you to leave you'd be gone by now Lia" he stood up.
"What?"
"I love you Lia. And I really wish I didn't, but the sad thing is the thought of you not being here with me scared me more than you being with Calum. So you're not leaving okay? But please just don't expect me to be okay after you nearly fucked my best friend two days ago" he was calmer now and his eyes looked even more tired than the night before.
I nodded quietly and sat down on the edge of the bed.
"I love you too" I answered, I wiped another tear from my face and smiled up to him. He looked down at me and stood in front of me. He wrapped his arms around my back and placed a kiss on the top of my head.
"I have to get ready" he said looking at the clock, realizing we had wasted half of the day.
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Watching Luke play that night made me remember why he played. He had so much emotion and it was just like the first time I'd seen them live. It was his outlet and the only way to relieve the bullshit I had put him through.

After Luke was done he came out off of the stage with a big smile and sweat dripping face. I smiled at the sight and ran to him. Hugging him tightly, I stood up and pressed my lips to his.
"I'm all sweaty" he laughed when I pulled away.
"I know" I said.
"What was that for?" He smiled down at me again.
"You played a good show."
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"Alright let's go get something to eat" Ashton said once we all piled in the car on our way back to the hotel.
"Can we go get changed first?" Luke asked, placing his arm around my waist and pulling me closer to him in the small seat.
"Okay" Calum answered before anyone else could.
I opened the door to the small hotel room and was greeted by two figures sitting on the bed.
I turned on the light in a small panic.
"Hey Lia!" Elliot and Katie pulled me into a bear hug.