I'll be yours

Chapter 20

Afterward, we got something to eat and made our way back to my apartment.

"Could I possibly take a shower?" Luke asked.
"Yeah go ahead" I smiled setting the remainder of my food down on the table.
I heard the bathroom door close as I sat down at the table.
I felt a little bit nauseous, probably from the food. I decided to go get something for my stomach.
I walked into the bathroom.
"Sorry I just don't feel good" I said opening the cabinet.
"It's okay babe." He responded.
That's when the bottle of OxyContin resting on the sink caught my eye.
"Are you sick or something?" He asked pulling me from my curiosity.
"I-uh no I think it's passing" I closed the door behind me.
"Luke why do you have this?" I asked shaking the bottle.
"Oh it's just for pain, I got in a hockey accident and messed up my shoulder a while back" he said it too smoothly, like he had recited it a million times.
"Oh alright" I accepted his explanation, hoping that he was okay.
But unfortunately you can't shake that sinking feeling when you know something is wrong.
I walked out and sat on the couch. Looking for s movie to put on.
"I'm just gonna leave my stuff in there for this week okay?" He walked out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist.
"Yeah that's fine" I said swallowing the lump in my throat.
"Okay, cool. The guys are going to a party, do you want to go?"
I didn't really want to go to a party where girls would be all over him and everyone else, but he looked pretty hopeful.
"Why not?" I faked a smile.
"Alright, we can get ready now if you want" he walked toward my room.
I followed and picked out something to wear while he got dressed.
I put on a pair of ripped jeans and a long black and white sweater. Luke was wearing his usual nirvana shirt with black jeans and a flannel.
"Ready?" He asked as he pulled a beanie onto his head, then ran his fingers through his hair. I nodded and followed him to the car.
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"Aye! Haven't seen you in a while" Ashton pulled me into a hug when Luke and I approached him. "I know, how are you?" I asked politely. "Good" he answered. "I'm gonna go get us a drink" Luke excused himself. "I see now that Luke stupidly forgave you for being a selfish bitch" Calum walked towards us. "What ar-"
"Forget it lia" Calum snapped.
"Luke and I sorted that out we're good now"
I defended.
"You weren't the one that had to stay up all night with him the day you left" he said to monotone.
"Oh" I looked down at my feet and tucked my hair behind my ear.
"I'm sorry, I just don't want him go get hurt."
"I won't hurt him"
"Again" he corrected.
"Again" I agreed.
I guess he was finished with his harassment cause he just kind of walked away. Weird. I looked at Ashton, trying to read his expression. He shrugged. "Ash lets go" a tall girl with long dirty blonde hair pulled him away leaving me waiting for Luke alone.
"Oh, hi Lia" Michael smiled as he walked by me quickly

"Hey guys" Luke approached us holding a drink in each hand. "Oh alright bye Michael" He handed one to me and I smiled at him.
Michael nodded and continued his quick pace.
"He's been weird lately" Luke said referring to Michael.
"How so?"
"I think he likes this girl he's been sleeping with, but you can never tell with Mikey" he led me to the couch. He sat down and pulled me onto his lap. We listened intently and took some shots, as Ashton talked about home to some girls.
"I'm going to go to the bathroom" I whispered to Luke. He nodded and I made my way slowly up the stairs. "Hey" Calum pulled my shoulder and turned me around. "Yeah?" I asked. My voice was shaky.
"What the fuck?" He raised his voice. "What's your issue"i asked confused.
He pushed me into the nearest room. "Why does he even like you" he looked me up and down. His words were cruel but his eyes contradicted them. "You're fucking awful"
"Calum you're drunk and you're definitely not looking at me like I'm awful" I defended.
"I don't get it"
"Do you want to?" What was I doing?
He looked me up and down once again.
He nodded and pushed me against the wall. Trailing his fingers down my arm. He pushed his lips to mine. I pulled away and looked at him for a minute. He was very attractive. His eyes were dark and lustful and I was drunk. I reconnected our lips and he lifted me up carrying me to the bed. He sat down with me onto of him. Calum stopped and looked up at me. "What are we doing?" He asked me looking down, placing his hands on my hips. I leaned in and kissed him again. "I don't know"
He kissed me again
"We're going to regret it"
I returned it.
"Fuck Calum I know shut up"
He looked at me like I was crazy. I just pushed him down and kissed him.
"You're a whore"
"You're an asshole"
"Fair enough"
He flipped so I was lying on the bed and he was sitting overtop of me.
He placed a kiss on my collar bone. I worked my fingers through his hair.
As he was making his way to my jeans there was a knock on the door. "Hold on" Calum yelled hopping off of me. "Fuck"
The door opened slowly and I rolled off of the side of the bed and crawled under it just in time. "Hey cal have you seen lia?"
Luke's voice filled the room.
Don't say anything Calum. "No man I haven't" Calum said cooly. "Oh okay, if you see her can you tell me? I want to make sure she's having fun" Luke said closing the door. My heart sank. I crawled back on top of the bed. "We shouldn't have done that" I said.
"Eh we're drunk we just don't have to tell him" he said climbing back onto the bed.
"I'm gonna go find him." I said fixing my hair in the mirror. "You can't just leave, we didn't even do anything" he said offended.
"Take care of yourself then" I shrugged.
"You really are a bitch" he laughed as I walked out of the room.
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"Ready to go? I'm kinda bored" I asked Luke, placing a hand on his shoulder. "Yeah" he smiled softly. Not as happily as before. He knew I was with Calum. "are you mad at me?" I asked him. "Why would I be love?" He stood up and laced his fingers into mine. Just kidding I guess he didn't know. "I don't know" I was still pretty drunk. We walked to the car.
We made our way safely to the apartment. "I'm going to be sick" I said running to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me and then threw up most of what happened tonight.
After I was done I stood and washed my mouth out at the sink.
I looked down at the bottle that was earlier filled with pills and now had only about 10 left.