My stomach dropped as I read the message. There was no way I could explain what had happened. I didn't even know why I left. I wanted to be with Luke. Not Andy, and the way he acted scared me. There wasn't any excuse though. I took him for granted and then left. I couldn't see just how lucky I was.
I set my phone down and made my way to the kitchen. I pulled out the bottle of vodka that I hid in the back of the cabinet. Katie and I only drank it once in a while. So it was significantly full. The worst part of it all, was that I had wanted Luke for so long. But I left him. Ironic, but also illogical considering he didn't do anything wrong. My head continued to pound due to the constant thoughts of my stupidity. I downed some vodka and sat on my bed.
Me: I'm going to get some sleep. I'll call and explain in the morning.
I saw no point in explaining because i had made a pointless decision.
It's not like we were together for more than a week. I thought as I gulped more vodka. As soon as The burning in my throat started to ease. I downed some more. Making it impossible for my thoughts to creep into my head.
Luke: okay, sleep well beautiful.
My chest started to ache again. I finished off most of the bottle and stood up to put it back. Immediately feeling the affects of the drink. I dropped the bottle and fell backward onto the mattress. My surroundings going black as I hit the pillow.
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As soon as I opened my eyes, the thought of My shitty decisions popped into my aching head. I sat up and called Katie's name, hoping she would be home. My door opened and she appeared holding a box of instant mashed potatoes. "You look awful" she said setting the box on my nightstand and sitting down next to me. "Can you make me some tea?" I asked laying back down and covering my face with a pillow. "Sure if you tell me why you just got on a tour bus with the hottest man on the planet and then got off to come back home a day later with your psychotic ex boyfriend" she crossed her legs and turned to face me. "I'm an idiot." I whined into the pillow. "Yeah you are. If I had that chance I wouldn't of let him out of my sight" she stood up and walked out. "I fucking know okay?" I yelled into my pillow. Regretting it instantly when my words pierced through my brain.
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FanfictionI didn't want you for the followers or the attention. I wanted you for the waking up in the morning next to a sleepy smile and your groggy voice. For the dinners at your parents with your brothers, and your very loving mother and reserved father. I...
