I'll be yours

Chapter 17

I sat up and swung my legs to get out of bed. I, being the annoying girly girl that I was l, marked that Luke and I had been together for three weeks. (Pathetic I know, but come on you would do it too). Then I texted him once again
Me: good luck! I can't wait until you come back :)
I smiled at the thought of how close it was to him being here again. Then I pulled on A red and white flannel and my black skinny jeans and made my way to the kitchen to get something to eat. "I heard you and Andy talking last night. Sounds like you guys are on great terms." Katie said from the table. "Yeah he's a great guy." I rolled my eyes, tiring my hair back in a ponytail "What did he even do that was so bad Lia, Andy's a good guy" she defended, if only she knew. "Andy is nowhere close to a good guy Katie" I scoffed putting on water on the stove top burner for some tea. She shook her head and went into her room leaving me in the kitchen alone.

After I drank it, I put my cup and the sink and headed to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth, put on minimal makeup, and headed out the door for class.
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Today was one of the only days I decided to sit through a whole hour and a half. Which just happened to be the day they handed out semester reports at the end of the lesson. Not too much to my surprise I was failing. Very badly may I say. Do you know what it's like freshman year, when you fail and you cry? You don't do that in college. Or at least I didn't. Because I didn't give a fuck. "Ms. White" the professor called me back when I was exiting class. "Yes sir?"
"What's been with you. I know my class isn't the most interesting, but unlike most professors, I actually care about my students succeeding" he explained. Don't take it personal, I'm a failure in all my other courses too, I thought. "I've been really busy trying to find a job" I lied. "Well if you want a good one in the long run, right here is better than any newspaper add you find" I nodded and he excused me.
"Lia!" I heard a voice call behind me. It was Alison. She was in most of my courses here. She had long dark brown hair, that went down to her belly button, green eyes and she was thin and tall. "Hi" I smiled at her. "What's up Ali-"
"Are you dating Luke Hemmings?" She interrupted. Her voice getting quieter. "I-um well we have a thing going on and-yeah we are" I explained running my fingers through my hair. "Well that's what I thought cause it looks like more than a thing on Twitter." She said winking and walking away.
What? I pulled my phone out of my pocket and saw a notification on my homescreen.
Luke Hemmings
I am so unbelievably lucky to have you in my life. @white_lia

I smiled like an idiot for the rest of the way home. Luke didn't care if anyone knew about us. That meant so much to me. That night I gained about 100 followers on Twitter which was great for me because I was stuck at 50 for a really fucking long time. When I checked my phone next o had a couple of direct messages.

"You are a fucking whore, he could do so much better"

"Maybe if you dropped 15 pounds you would be suitable for Luke to lay eyes on"

"What the fuck Is wrong with Luke? He chose you over any of us?"

Did I expect it? Yeah, eventually. Did I think it would get to me? Nope not at all. But did it hurt? Yes, it really fucking hurt.

I locked my phone screen and buried my pillow. I silently cried myself to sleep.

Several hours later. I woke up to my phone. I sat up and looked at the time. 2:17 a.m.
"Hey, how was the show?" I asked Luke.
"It was okay not as good as the last. But still fun" he said cheerfully
"Nice"
"What's wrong?"
I hesitated. Not knowing whether or not to tell him about the messages I received earlier.
"You can tell me lia" he said softly
"I've just been reading some of the hate is all. Nothing important." I tried to brush it off.
"You can't let them bother you"
"It doesn't bother me". It did.
"Babe, I really wish it could be different but it isn't."
Naturally, I only heard babe.
"I know. It's fine really I can deal with it."
"Just don't listen to them okay?"
"Alright, you should get some sleep you sound tired" I changed the subject from myself.
"Okay I will"
"Okay goodnight lu-"
"Lia?"
"Yeah?"
"Thankyou for staying" he sounded distant again, like he needed to say something but he couldn't find the words.
"Thankyou for letting me" I replied.
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