I'll be yours

Chapter 29

I pulled out of Ashtons and wiped my teary eyes.  "Thank you"

" Well having a baby with Luke wont be bad, you love him right.?"

" i do" i nodded.  The thought of having kids with him was actually quite welcoming.  In a way, i was kind of excited.  We were going to make it work. 

Ashton nodded toward the sink and i picked up the text.  My heart sank at the results.

Just as i threw it away.  My phone rang. I ignored lukes call and follwed Ashton back to the car. 

By the time i had buckled, i had pressed the ignore button about 7 times. 

"Are you going to tell him about the test?" Ashotn asked starting the car and making his way back to Lukes house. 

"Yeah maybe" i shrug.  I had expirienced such an emotional rollercoaster that day it was hard to think.

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"Hi liz" i plastered the fake smile i had perfected for so many years,as i made my way through the door of the house.

  "Hi, Luke saw you leave, hes quite upset" Liz answered me with a frown, exiting the door as we spoke

"Why was he upset?"

"I dont know but something must have happend because all i heard was "Fucking Calum" she said.  It was weird listening to her use that lanugage. "I have to go dear i hope you sort this out"

Then it clicked.  

Fucking Calum

"No no no no no" The memory of ashtons words crashed through my jumbled thoughts. 

"No, I had to borrow Cal's"

"Fuck!" i yelled, causin Liz to jump.  

"Luke?'' i ran to the bedroom and burst through the door.  I found Lukes phone lying on the ground with a shattered screen and my contact lighting it up. 

He's okay, it's okay' hes just angry   i thought to myself.  That eased my thoughts a little until i noticed the sound of the shower turn on, engulfing the small house with the sound of a shower. 

I ran to the bathroom and turned the door handle. 

"Luke"

it was locked, 

"Please let me in and explain,  I wasnt with Cal, I was with Ashton i had to get something at the store" i stopped my babbling and waited for some kind of emotion on the other side of the door. 

"Luke please"

He continued to ignore me.  I knew then that  I had fucked up so much but i didnt know how much. 

Because what i didnt know waswhat was going to kill me in the end.  I went to the ktichen and ulled a knife out of the drawer.  I worked it into the keyhole, and unclocked the door.  As I emerged from the hallway into the bathroom, the small walls caved in on my along with my chest and my immediate sobbing turned into uncontrolable screaming and the shaky dialing of 911.  

Because what i didnt know was that Luke had taken 27 tablets of OxyContin and was lying unconsious on the bathroom floor.