I'll be yours

Chapter One

I've always wondered what it's like for you. How do you feel knowing that millions of girls would pay hundreds of dollars for you to play for a few hours. So many of them wait and save up for months to get one picture with you. How is it Luke? As much as I'd hate to admit it. I'm one of those girls. But instead of the normal things that come with "celebrity crushes" I find myself watching your videos over and over again. Not to admire how attractive you look. But the way your voice cracks with emotion at certain points of the songs you sing. At first it was all about the music. But I knew things had changed when I realized that my favorite song was a tall blonde boy with bright blue eyes that made me uneasy.
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I stared at my feet, counting my steps on the cracked sidewalk I noticed now that I left that house that my light shorts and nirvana t-shirt didn't exactly yell approachable. That and my newly kook aid dyed blue hair. Medicine by daughter rang through my headphones. I looked up and turned left onto the street with my favorite cafe. "Hey Lia" I was stopped by a deep voice. "Yeah? Oh-hi!" I turned to see my first boyfriend, Andy. I walked over to him and he pulled me into a tight hug. "You look great, you've changed a lot" he said looking me up and down. "You have too, wow it's been like 5 years" I replied. "Yeah, you wanna catch up sometime? We should get together again. I mean not like we were before but-yeah wow 5 years" his tongue tripped over his words as he tried to get them out. I giggled at him, knowing that he hadn't changed at all. I missed him a lot. But it's hard not to miss your first love who you spent every waking moment with until the end of junior year. But it was the kind of missing him him that was okay. The kind you could deal with, because you know that time had taken its toll and that you had your chance. It has faded to a dull ache for a while after a little reminder. But I was glad it had happened. "Well I guess I'll see you around" he said turning on his heel to walk away. "Wait are you living around here now?" I asked confused. I left the town that I grew up in. The one he did too. It was one of those towns that everyone knew everyone else. And If you didn't want to grow up with a picket fence and a dog,, it was the most suffocating place in the world. So I left. Freshman year I took up guitar and then my grades started dropping. I planned out all of my future tattoos and listened to In utero on repeat. Then two days after I graduated, one of my close friends and decided to go. I packed my shit, hugged my emotional mother and got the hell out of there. "Yeah, I always liked the way you guys talked about Seattle. So I thought I'd try it, I'm going to school here so o should see you" he said smiling. "See you" I returned the smile. Slightly uneasy that he had practically followed my every move to Seattle, and even to the same school.
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I made my way up to the apartment to tell Katie what had happened with Andy early. I turned the knob. "Okay so the weirdest thing ever happened-" "Shut the fuck up and get your ass over here" I was cut off by Katie pulling me to the front of the computer. "Hi we're five seconds of summer" I heard through the small speakers. My attention was caught immediately. "They are freaking coming to Seattle this mother fucking Saturday, I am freaking out. I can't breathe" Katie yelled as I jumped on top of her. "I can't even handle this right now. Why didn't God emotionally prepare me for this. We are going. I don't care how much pit tickets are we are going to be as close to goddam Michael Clifford as we can get" I yelled through my cupped hands. I grabbed the laptop and ordered the tickets for her and I.
"My favorite part of this is that we are 18 years old and are hardcore fangirls" she laughed. "Okay it is acceptable" I said joining in on the laughter.