Raging Storm of Seduction

Chapter 23

KALEIGHNA'S POV

Hindi ko maintindihan. Hindi ko masyadong maalala ang truth or dare na ito. Hindi ko makapagsalita.

I looked at Launce and saw how mad he is right now. I froze at my stance, I can't move, not even a bit.

"Now, explain it to me." Launce's voice sounded so weak.

I'm scared and nervous right now. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Siguro dahil pagod na pagod na ako sa mga pangyayare? Siguro dahil nasasaktan ako dahil sa nangyare sa daddy ko? Siguro dahil na rin nasasaktan ako para sa sarili ko. Posible pala talaga 'yun 'no? Na hindi ka makakapagsalita kapag sobrang pagod ka na, kapag sobra na ang iniyak mo, kapag hinang hina ka na.

I just cried while looking at Launce, looking at him, begging.

"Please.." I cried more. "Hindi k-ko na a-alam.."

Right now, I'm just tired, I don't want to lose him but I know that If I don't explain right now, mawawala siya. Maghihiwalay kami. Iiwan niya ako.

Pero hindi na talaga ako makapagsalita, siguro dahil na rin sa pagod, takot.. Everything is mixed up.

"Magsasalita ka ba o ano? Do you have anything to say?" Launce is still really calm, even if he's hurting.

Napaupo na lang ako dahil sa panghihina at pagod. "T-the kiss was not consented. Atkin k-kissed me and I didn't like i-it." I stopped talking to breathe more. I'm having a hard time breathing right now.

"What about the video?" He asked weakly.

I cried more, "H-hindi ko alam. Maniwala ka, lasing na lasing talaga ako."

He smiled weakly, "All right then."

"L-launce, I beg you. Don't break up with me. H-hindi ko kaya.." Inunahan ko na siya. Pakiramdam ko kasi makikipag hiwalay na siya.

I cried more at the thought of him leaving me. I love him so much and I can't afford to lose him. In a short span of time, I know that I truly love him. Yes, I was hurt to find out that he's a divorcee. Pakiramdam ko hindi ko siya tuluyang kilala. Pakiramdam ko marami pa siyang tinatago. Yes, I kind of doubted him but my love for him is overpowering. It's so strong that I feel like no one and nothing could break it.. But I guess I was wrong.

"During that game, did he kiss you?" Launce asked me, looking down at me.

"I...." My lips are shaking. "I can't remember..." I cried more, feeling more hurt and frustrated.

"Fuck..." Launce cursed softly. I looked up at him, his hands were on his eyes. "Tangina, ang sakit..."

I remained seated, crying and weak. Still can't speak because I am shaking and my heart is racing.

"I thought you were different." Launce uttered before leaving the house. Leaving me, weak and crying.

I just realized that he's all gone when I heard the sound of the car's engine. I stood up and ran outside.

"Launce!!" I screamed and ran. "Launce!!"

I cried and felt weak. He's gone. He's now gone!

I'm such a weakling for not explaining! I'm such a jerk for being weak.

Hindi ko talaga alam kung ano ang nangyari saakin. Hirap na hirap akong magsalita. Hindi ako makapagsalita dahil tila kinakapos ako sa hangin at tila kinakain ko ang sarili kong boses.

Iyak lang ako ng iyak magisa sa kalsada. Pagod na pagod at hindi makahinga. I cried so hard, hoping and wishing for a miracle. I am fucked up. I am now really fucked up. My life's fucked up! Kaya ko pa ba? Hindi na ata..