HIS CHILDHOOD PRINCESS

24-AFTER YOU LEFT

Alyssha's POV

I am happy is an understatement. I am thrilled right now. My Rian is here and Damian is my Rian.

I know he said that he loves me but how would I know that I love him? Everything that I feel around him is different. I got jealous when he was talking and laughing with Maya. I feel possessive over him like I want him only for me. I have never let anyone touch me even a bit but with him I feel very natural to kiss him. Things got a little hitted in the morning but still it didn't feel wrong. But I don't know if this is love or not because I don't even know the meaning of the word love. Then how can I confess to him?

"Baby girl, can I ask you a question? You won't have to answer but I will appreciate it if you do." He asks very carefully. What it could be that he is being so cautious.

"You said things were not good at the orphanage after I left and you were abused. I saw scars on your body the other day. What happened baby?" I get tense at his question. He saw my scars. He knows about them then why did he kiss me?

"How....how do you know about the scars?" I ask, a little scared.

"I saw them on friday when I brought you to your room after you fell asleep."

I don't know what I should tell him. I never ever mention this to anyone except Oliver but again he is Rian, my Rian. I can trust him.

"I know you might not want to share it, baby girl neither do I say that it will be easy to share but it's sometimes good to let it out of your heart. It will make you feel light and you won't have to tell me right away. I will wait till you are ready. Just know that I am with you and I will be with you always." He says very softly while rubbing my back lightly.

"I..I want to tell you but I am scared." I look at him.

"Scared of what baby?"  He says while caressing my arms.

"That you will be disgusted with me or the worst, you will leave me again." I am shaking just at the thought of him leaving me again.

"Not at all, baby girl. I made a mistake once but I will be stupid if I do that again. At least trust your nerdy, if not Damian." I look at him and I see only sincerity and honesty in his eyes.

I hum and start my story.

"When school started, I came to know that my sponsorship was cancelled but school let me in because of my excellent grades, thanks to you." I look at him with great fullness and he kisses my temple.

"However, I still would have to pay extra expenses like field trips, sports guides and much more. So I decided to get a part time job but before I could do anything, mama Maria passed away." He is softly rubbing my back, which I really appreciate because it has a calming effect on me. I take a deep breath before continuing.

"The new management was anything but nice. All kids, who had no sponsorship, were forced to go to dangerous areas to sell and supply drugs. Most of those places were where all gangs used to operate. They would often try to sexually molest us, especially girls."

"Marcus, the new manager and our legal guardian, set up a torture chamber in the basement to punish us. We make a small mistake and we would be punished till we pass out. Most common punishments would be kick, slap, whipped, cut with knives or just starve us for a few days. But for major mistakes, punishments can go little further like whipped with a hot leather belt, hit with an iron rod, rub chilies or salt on the wounds or just play with our na..naked bodies. He just loved the sound of our crying and seeing us begging for his mercy." I shudder just by thinking about that hell hole. I look at him and he looks back at me with so much pain and hugs me really tight. I kiss his eyes and he gives me a small smile. I once again continue.