no more stars to find || billie eilish

ten.

Hawaii. I've always been wanting to go there. Now you must think, but, Megan, I thought you hated the heat? Not when it's in a whole different country or state. Hawaii is supposed to be hot, you know? You don't go there for the cold.

Anyways, today is the day Billie and I are going. I don't know if I did anything wrong these past few days, but I can't seem to get in contact with Nora. I've been wanting to tell her about the trip, but she doesn't respond to any of my messages. It's been like that for two days now. At first, she only seemed to ignore my phone calls, she still responded to my texts. But she doesn't even do that anymore. I just hope there's nothing wrong.

"Morning, baby", Billie says when I let her inside of my apartment. She drags all of her bags inside and gives me a quick peck on the cheek.

"Morning." I look down at her bags, which must be twice as much as I packed. "So, you're going for a whole month, or?"

"Oh, shut the fuck up", she says while softly slapping me on the arm. "You know me. I need my stuff."

"Right." I giggle.

"So, how are things going here?" She looks around and falls down on the couch.

I shrug, sitting down next to her. "It's fine. I just... I haven't heard from Nora for a while now which worries me a lot." Looking down at my lap, Billie grabs both of my hands and rubs her thumbs against it softly.

"Hey, I'm sure she's fine. Have you gone to her one of these days? To see if she's alright?"

"No. I thought that–I didn't want to bother her. She's been having a hard enough time already, you know? Because of us." I look at her, biting my bottom lip. "I mean, that must be the reason why she's not responding, right?"

She nods. "Yeah, no, she probably hates you."

"Fuck you!"

She giggles while putting a strand of hair behind my ear. "Not right now, love. We have to go in a few minutes. We'll have all the time in the world once we're in Hawaii."

I look at her, annoyed, while shaking my head which makes her smile. "And who's going to take care of this little baby?", she asks as Jimmy walks up to her.

"Oh, um, my brother. He'll be coming over after he's done with work."

She nods while looking deep into my eyes. As I see her eyes slowly traveling down to my lips my phone starts ringing. "It's Nora!" Thank god. "Is it okay if I–"

"Of course. Go."

I walk into the bathroom and quickly pick up the phone. "Nora?"

"...Hey, Meg", I hear after a short while.

"Oh my god, Nor, finally. I was worried sick. Is everything okay?"

"Yeah..."

"Nora?"

I hear her sigh and sniff. "It's my mom."

"Your mom? Wha–what about her?"

"She's in the hospital."

"What? Why?"

"Because of her heart... again."

"Oh my god, Nora. Do you–do you want me to come over?"

"What? No, no, no. You go to Hawaii with your girlfriend."

"Huh? How do you–"

"Billie told me. She came to me a few days ago and asked me if it was alright to take you with her to Hawaii."