Waste It On Me ( BTS - RM FF) [ON-HOLD]

Chapter 23

It's been five days since we got back from Korea, all that has happened there felt like a dream, I can't call it nightmare even if something bad has happened.

Why?

Because there i gained friends whom i am truly grateful to.

And I'm an idiot to just think about it now,

I pushed away someone who's important to me, someone who's willing to stay by my side..

Just because I'm scared i shut him away, tell me.. did i do the right thing?

But most importantly, i received a blessing even though i lost one.

It happened back then at Korea almost two weeks ago, at the hospital room when i received the news about my baby.

>>Flashback

"I'm sorry, but your baby did not make it. You bled a lot and we didn't manage to save the other one. "

I cried so hard after hearing the news. It's gone, my baby is gone.

I'm sorry my baby, mommy isn't good enough to keep you.

Jin who looked lost in thought suddenly speaks.

"Didn't save the other one? What do you mean? " he asked.

I stopped crying and analyzed the words the doctor just stated out earlier.

But as i think about it further my head just started to ache.

"Please pardon me for telling you the bad news first, but we have a good news for you, i hope this time it can make you happy. " The doctor said with a slight smile on his lips.

"Please just tell me already.. " i said impatiently while trying to dry my tears.

"Congratulations, you are still pregnant. You have bore twins but the other one was weak, it is understandable with the situation that you went through, it's just a miracle that one of your twins are in healthy condition, it seems like the little one sacrificed himself to protect you and his sibling. "

My heart leaped with joy but at the same time i was devastated. But still.. it's a good news. I'm still going to be a mom!

-End of FB-

So when i arrived at home, i took a bath and rested. After resting i set up a small altar dedicated to my baby who sacrificed itself, even though it's still a fetus who has just started to grow, i am grateful but i also miss her.

Don't worry my little Sky, mommy will always remember you. I hope you'll be happy wherever you are.

I decided to call her Sky, contrary to what pronoun the doctor called her, i am sure my baby's gender was a girl. It's mommy instincts i guess?

Ellie who have come visit me found out about the altar i built. So i had no choice but to tell her what happened, and i also told her the thing that happened between me and Namjoon.

At first it looked like she wanted to scream at my face for not telling her such important matter, i told her that she should not get stressed because it's bad for her baby since her pregnancy is quite critical.

She calmed down after i explained a few more words to her. But i haven't told her about the baby's twin who's still alive and well. Actually we're still not sure if it's well, i haven't had any check ups yet. I've set an appointment with an obgyne and tommorow I'll be having my first check up.

-The next day-

I'm now ready to go, i looked at the mirror and caressed my 'not-so-flat' tummy, i haven't realized it before but there really is a person growing inside of me. My eyes teared up in happiness and went to the altar to bid my baby goodbye before heading to my gynecologist.

When i arrived, there was a small lane but i was surprised to see someone who was surprised to see me as well.

"Kriz? " The latter exclaimed.

"Denz, fancy seeing you here. " I said.

I'm not surprised that i haven't felt anything after seeing my ex.

My heart now beats for someone else.

"What are you doing here? " He asked.

"It's not weird for me to be here, but the question is same for you, what are you doing here? " I asked back.

He looked guilty and looked on the floor. He was about to speak when someone called him.

A woman, whom her belly was bulging, it was very round and it looks like it's her due soon.

When she reached our place, she clinged onto his arm and asked "who's she? "

Denz who looked like he had no choice, sighed before introducing us to each other.

"Kriz, this is my 'fiancee', I can't explain it in details but all i can say is that, the baby is mine, I've found out that she was pregnant recently that's why I'm here to accompany her for her check ups. "

I nodded and smiled.

"And uh, this is the ex that i told you about, her name is Kriz. " He told the woman beside him.

"Hi, nice to meet you! " I said and reach out my hand.

They were both surprised by my action but the woman accepted my hand and shook it.

"So can you tell me why you're here? " Denz asked.

"I'm also here for my check up, I'm now 8 weeks pregnant. " I happily said.

The woman who was with him immediately stared at Denz with horror. Denz widened his eyes and looked at me questioningly.

"Oh, no! no! It's not his don't worry. " I assured them.

Denz was about to ask, his eyebrows furrowed. But i stopped him.

" Please don't ask further I don't want to complicate things anymore, i didn't cheat on you if that's what you want to ask. I'm happy the way things they are now, please don't disturb me anymore and just focus on your fiancee. " I said.

I bid my goodbye after that because my name was called. They were left dumbfounded because they didn't expect that i have moved on. The woman earlier looked like she was ready to attack me when i said i am pregnant, what a possessive biatch, i bet they hooked up when Denz and I we're together. But I don't care now anyway, it's not my business to pry on them.

As the obgyne showed my baby at the monitor i almost cried, the heartbeat can be heard and the obgyne said the baby is healthy with no sign of any miscarriage. I thanked the heavens and everyone that i could think of thanking.

After that, she prescribed me some vitamins and told me to stay away from stress since i told her what happened to me back in Korea. She said it was truly a miracle.

I went home happily, with a few baby materials and some clothes in my hand because was just really excited.

I divided it in twos and put the half on the altar, i guess i have to make a nursery for her from now on, because I'm going to pamper them both and love them equally even though Sky has left this world.

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NOTE: Okay, I'm sorry for not updating for the last few weeks? Days? I am just busy as of the moment, but I'll try to regulate updating starting next week since we are slowly approaching the end. Hope you understand, love lotsss~