Only One (Harry Styles fanfic)

Chapter 37

Chapter 37

Selena's Pov

I slammed the door into the boy I love's face. Mixed emotions washed over me, anger, love, frustration, sadness, e.c.t. I froze, my back leaning against the front door.

WHAT JUST HAPPENED? Harry came over, said nothing and decides to hug me? Ugh! What? So he thinks he can just get me back after using me? I'm not a toy that he can just drop then pick up again when he felt like it... I hate him! Though being in Harry's arms again felt so right, so much hurt flushed over me. I slowly slid my back down the wooden door, curling up into a ball on the cold hard tiles. I started to sob into my knees, remembering what had happened the day before. After seeing Rachael eat Harry's face I ran to an old playground I used to play at. I would always run there when I felt upset, it made me remember all the smiles and laughs I had in my childhood. Zayn, Liam and I used to always play there when we were little, we had many good memories.

I was hiding in a red tube under the slide, crying my eyes out yesterday. Zayn came and asked what was wrong, I didn't tell him at first but at the end I blurted out all my thoughts and feelings as I cried into his chest. He finally convinced me to go home and take a warm shower and sleep, considering I'd been out in the cold for god knows how long. My phone vibrate many times throughout the night but I ignored it. I didn't feel like talking to anyone but Zayn, he always knew exactly what to say and do to make me feel better. My mum saw the state I was in in the morning and decided to let me stay home. I spent the day lying in bed thinking about all the memories with Harry. I love him and I thought he did too, but I forgot nothing good ever happens to me and when it did, it always came with a catch.

More tears stained my grey jumper as I wiped it away with my sleeve. What was his purpose coming over if he had nothing to say? My heart felt nothing but pain as I thought about it over and over again.

My mum finally came home and found me crying on the floor. She came over and joined me, wrapping her arms around me. Neither of us spoke as I continued crying, which was hard to breathe considering the snot in my nose built up. "Are you ok?" she asked, breaking the silence. I shook my head as I cleaned my tears with my sleeve. "Can I ask why you've been crying these two days? What happened?" she asked caringly, tucking a bit of hair behind my ear.

"The boy I love cheated on me mummy" I admitted, crying into her shoulder.

My mother sighed, "men are like that, they're all like that"

"But I thought he would be different, I guess I was wrong" I said "he told me he loved me and treated me like a princess, I thought he was telling the truth..."

"All men want is sex and after they get bored of banging you they just go find a new girl. I know there might be one or two on this earth that actually loves their girl but they're impossible to find. Yes it hurts, I know baby, but if he's that stupid to not see how special you are, then he doesn't deserve your tears" she said, stroking my back. I nodded as my tears dried up.

"Thank you mummy" I said giving her a kiss on the cheek.

"No problem. Now go take a shower while I make you come dinner, ok?" she said as she got up. I nodded and did what I was told.

I opened the ensuite bathroom as the steam gushed into my room. I looked at the clock that displayed 6:35pm. I took more than an hour in the shower, spending my time thinking about Harry. I miss him, love him and hate him at the same time. I'm honestly confused and lost in everything that ever made sense. I put a clean pair of pyjamas on and headed down stairs to where the smell of dinner was. I felt my stomach grumble, I hadn't eaten all day and all last night. So I was pretty keen on getting some food into my system.

Dinner was laid out on the dining table. I sat down next to my mum, examining my noodles that looked so delicious right now. I chowed down on my dinner with no hesitation, the food soothing my hunger. It was silent until the sound of my mum's phone rang. She got up and answered it. "Yes, she's here, let me put her on" I heard my mum say as she handed me the phone. I argued in my head, whether or not to answer, but in the end I took it.

"Hey, how you feeling?" the sound of my best friend's voice echoed through the phone.

"Not so good Liz" I admitted.

I heard her exhale as a silence fell, "are you coming to school tomorrow?" she asked finally.

"I don't know, I don't really want to see him" I answered.

"I know you don't, but you will have to eventually" Liz said. I sighed, realizing what she said was true. "Please come, everything will be fine, trust me. It might be all a misunderstanding. I know Harry wouldn't do that to you, maybe he has a reason"

"I don't know, I might come and what kind of reason? He got horny for a make out and decided to do it right in front of my face?" I said coldly.

"I don't know, but Harry loves you. I still don't believe he did that to be honest. I'm sure everything will work out" she said.

"Mm, well he did. I might see you tomorrow, ok?"

"Ok, please be ok" she breathed.

"I will, bye" I said.

"Bye" she said as I hung up. My mum gave me a look of care before she headed towards the kitchen.