Only One (Harry Styles fanfic)

Chapter 35

Chapter 35

My heart shattered. "Are you sure she's not at school?" I asked again, hoping for a different response. Poppy nodded her head as my eyes started to fog up.

"She hasn't answered any of my calls or texts" she sadly informed me as the tears spilt down my face.

"Don't worry mate, everything will work out. I bet she just needs some alone time" Jordan said, landing his hand on my shoulder.

"I don't know... What if she doesn't want me anymore? What if she has already found someone new? What if she never wants to see me again?" I let out some of the 'what ifs' that were swimming around in my head.

"Harry, it's ok. She'll get over it and when I talk to her I will explain what happened. She'll listen to me, I'm her best friend" Poppy sighed.

"So what happened yesterday when you got to hers?" Jordan asked.

"Nothing... She wasn't home... I can't believe I hurt her..." I answered, feeling the pain stabbing in my chest. I wanted her to be at home. I wanted to see her. I wanted to apologise and tell her I'm an idiot but an idiot who loves her. I wanted her to forgive me. I wanted to cuddle her and show her how much she means to me. But I think we all know that's not going to happen...

I looked to the ground as I felt my body get weak. Did I really hurt my princess? I don't think I can even stand myself anymore... I didn't even deserve her in the first place. I hate myself!

"You fucking idiot!" Zayn yelled as he smashed me up against a locker, anger clear on his face.

"Zayn, Zayn, Zayn. Calm down" Jordan said, trying to get him off me.

"Seriously dude" Zayn shouted, pushing me harder against the locker, "I can't believe this! Why the fuck would you ever cheat on Selena? She treated you like a king and thought you were different. But never mind, you just wanted to stab her in the heart!" his words gutting me.

"I love Selena, I would never even think about cheating on her nor stab her in the heart... I love that girl more than anything in the universe! She is my one and only, I would never" I shouted.

Zayn gave me a look, "then why'd you fucking do it?" he asked coldly, tightening his grip on my shirt.

"What's going on?" I heard Louis ask, but Poppy shushed him.

"Zayn, calm down, let him explain" Jordan said. Zayn dropped me as tears flooded down my cheeks like a waterfall.

"Why? Why'd you do it? She's like my sister and for the ten years I've known her for she's always been the same beautiful girl with that smile on her face. Why make that smile into tears?" Zayn asked, deep care in his voice.

"I, I didn't... Well, I was to blame but I didn't mean to..." I stuttered, as Zayn's anger started to make it's way back to his face.

"Rachael came up out of nowhere and kissed him. He tried to push her away but she wouldn't nudge. Selena came out and saw them kissing and ran off, Harry tried to find her but he couldn't" Jordan explained for me.

Zayn's face softened "I found her crying in the playground that her and I used to play in when we were little, as I was walking home. She wouldn't talk to me at first but I got her to explain at the end. You really hurt her..." Zayn said.

"I know... And I feel like a fucking monster... I swore I would protect my princess, but instead, I was the one hurting her..." I said. I feel like holding her tight and telling her my feelings and explain but I know she would never forgive me... I wiped my tears as new ones formed, "I'm such an idiot..."

"Harry..." Zayn started, "you're not a monster... Or an idiot. It wasn't your fault, there was nothing you could've done. You tried pushing her away and that's all anyone could do"

"Yeah, but I didn't try hard enough to push her off" I sniffed as a snot bubble formed.

Zayn sighed, "knowing Selena, she will forgive you after you explain, but the only problem is getting her to listen to you" he paused for a second, "you would have to find some way to make her talk to you. Selena doesn't like listening to people's excuses but as soon as she does, she always forgives. So find a way , alright?"

I nodded, "I will find a way, hopefully... She means the world to me and I will do anything to get her back. My whole life is counting on this. I love her, I really do..." I said. Zayn looked at me, thinking to himself for a second.

"I'm sorry man and good luck" he said, hugging me and patting my back as the bell rang. I nodded as he walked away, heading towards class.

So how do I get my princess that means the world to me to listen? Would she listen? I'm such an idiot... I shouldn't have hurt her in the first place. I can't believe I hurt the girl I loved most in the world. Why did Rachael do that? She's going out with Connor...