Foster + j.j.

xxiv.

*alyssa*

I woke up the next day feeling worse than before. When people say that you shouldn't go to bed when you're in a bad mood, they are being completely correct.

Honestly, I don't want to get up. I just want to lay here all day long. There's nothing for me to do, I did my homework last night and I really don't feel like calling Cat. I'm not in the mood for her cheery attitude today.

Reaching for my phone, I saw that I have five text messages.

Two from Jack and three from Cat.

I opened Cat's first:

"Hey! I hope you're okay"

"You didn't really talk yesterday. You gave me one word answers."

"Anyway I'm going over to Molly's today. Text me if you want to come. She won't mind."

I texted her back a simple, "No thanks."

Then I opened Jack's:

"Sorry I hung up so abruptly. I needed to go and Jack was hounding me."

"Anyway. Goodnight. I miss you <3"

I sighed. Is it weird that I miss him more than I miss Joe? It hasn't even been a month since I've known him and I barley see him so what is this feeling?

Sighing I thought of an idea. The thought got me excited so I sprung out of bed and down the stairs and into the kitchen.

"Katherine?" I asked.

"What's up, Lyss?"

"Can you book me a flight to LA?"

She gave me a confused look, "Why? You have school. I can't just send you out without a reason."

She's right. I don't have a specific reason why.

"I want to see Jack," I blurted out, looking down without even coming up with a better excuse.

I don't know why I told her that. Her face was stunned but it turned into a sympathetic smile.

She sighed sitting down on the stool and patting the one next to her, "Let's have a little chat."

I sat down next to her, shifting a little. This feels really awkward.

"Are you seriously willing to miss school just to see Jack?"

"I don't know," I answered, looking down at the counter top picking at my nails.

"I won't consider it if you won't give me a serious answer on why you want to go."

"That's the problem, Katherine. I don't know."

"It sounds to me that you like him."

I shrugged my shoulders, "I'm just really confused. I've never had this feeling before and it's indescribable."

"Your first crush," she answered.

I shot her an 'are you serious?' glare.

"Take it from someone who is married and has three children that went through the same exact thing," she took a sip from her mug. "It's not a bad thing. You two are getting closer and he's obviously setting off something in you that makes you like him."

"How do I get rid of it? I don't like it."

She stifled a laugh, "I know it's not the best feeling but you'll get used to it. When you see him more often it may be a little better."

"Does that mean I can go?" I asked full of hope.

"Alyssa, I'm not going to send you across the country to see him. You'll fall behind in school and it will only pile on top of itself. I'm sorry. You know it's not the best decision to send you."

My heart dropped. It felt like my mood went from fifty out of one hundred to like negative six.

I sighed, getting up off of the chair, "Okay."

My feet took me back to my room and I laid back down on my bed.

I miss JJ. I really do. Maybe Katherine is right.

Jack Johnson is my first crush.

And it's not worth going to LA just to see him.

~^~

Ooo! Look an update^^

Okay, imma go to bed now. And what I mean by that is lay in bed and watch YouTube or something.

I'm sorry these chapters are really sucky but I promise they will get better!