Foster + j.j.

xx.

*alyssa*

I sat on the couch minding my own business in my new dress and heals. Mahogany was a huge help. She even did my hair and make up to perfection.

My dress was a form fitting, teal blue, had one shoulder and went down my arm. The heals were black with teal detailing on the heal. They were five inches and kinda hard to walk in but some how I made it work. My make up was simple and my hair was is in cascading curls down my back.

The music was loud in here but for some reason I was able to hear every single conversation.

"She couldn't get a date even if she wanted to," Gilinsky laughed.

My head shot in his direction.

I looked up from my phone and over to Jack and his little group of friends.

"I mean look at her!"

All the guys turned their heads toward me and laughed along. All of them except JJ. I know they are all drunk, it's not hard to tell. C'mon, it's New Years, you don't expect them not to get drunk and high or whatever.

"She's so ugly! I mean look at her. She tries to look nice and act cool but she's just a wanna be."

What Gilinsky was saying hit me and it hit me hard. I heard when you're drunk you say your deep secrets that you wish no one ever hears. Well it's no secret that Gilinsky hates me.

"Go back to Philadelphia where you belong! Wait, you don't even belong there! Just like everywhere else in this world!"

I got up from the couch, trying to tune out all the laughing and pointing. As I walked outside to the patio I took a deep breathe because the air was cleaner out here than inside the apartment.

Tonight sucks. All I wanted was to leave and go somewhere anywhere but here. Could tonight get any worse?

Suddenly, my phone rang. I looked at it and it was an unknown number but the area code was from Philadelphia. Curious, I picked it up.

"Hello?" I answered.

"Yes. Hi. Is this Ms. Alyssa Jennifer?" A woman asked into the phone.

"Yes ma'am. Who is this?"

"This is the Hospital of Philadelphia. I regret to inform you that Mr. Joseph Lancaster has passed away yesterday from a head on car crash. I'm sorry for your loss, miss," she hung up the phone.

I felt numb. This is a joke right? This is some prank Jack is pulling. Joe isn't dead, that's a lie.

I got a text message from Katherine about two minutes after, "I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Joe's death yesterday. I didn't even know that the hospital would call you. The funeral is in Philly in three days. I can fly you there if you like."

I began to chew on my nails. This is seriously happening?

Rage began to well up in me. I ran my fingers through my hair not caring that it was done all nice for the party.

Why does everything bad have to happen to me? Joe was the only person that I had close to family and now he's gone.

I didn't even get to say goodbye! He said he would come back for me soon! Now I may never be able to leave Omaha! I hate it there! I hate Philadelphia! I hate the driver that killed Joe! I hate Jack! I hate my life!

I was throwing the chairs on the patio around in rage. I have the worst life on earth.

"I hate everything!" I screamed as I kicked the small glass table over, making it break in millions of pieces.

Right now I was pretty much on a rampage on this patio furniture. Frankly, I didn't care though. If Nash and Cameron want to dis me with Jack then they can have broken furniture. I mean it was bound to happen at some point during this party anyway.

As I continued to kick a chair around, ruining my new heals, a figure appeared in the door way. I was too angry to look at who it was.

"Alyssa, what are you doing?" JJ's voice sounded in my ears.

I ignored him and continued to ruin the chair.

"Alyssa," he said again but more sternly.

Once again I ignored him.

"Alyssa!" He shouted grabbing my forearms making me stop. "What happened?"

I began to pant as tears began to well up in my eyes. It just hit me. Joe's dead.

"Come here," he said calmly letting go of my arms and opening his.

I walked into his arms and instantly started sobbing; I wanted to speak but all that would come out is hiccups. JJ ran his fingers through my long hair trying to calm me down. It feels nice but it isn't working at all.

"Here follow me," he stated taking my hand in his as he climbed over the small wall onto the roof.

I didn't complain. All I wanted was to go somewhere else but here.

We walked for a few minutes then he stopped and turned towards me.

"Here, sit down take a deep breathe and tell me what happened," he sat me down on the floor.

"Um. Joe, um, Joe d-died in an a-ac-cident," I breathed out.

"I'm so sorry, Lyss," he cooed placing a few strands of hair behind my ear.

I cringed, looking down. That's exactly what Joe used to do when I was upset.

"I'm sorry. Should I not call you that?" He asked sympathetically.

I shook my head no.

"Too soon?"

I nodded my head.

"I'm sorry," he repeated.

There was an awkward silence. Neither one of us knew what to do.

I took a deep breathe and wiped my eyes not caring that I ruined my makeup from crying.

"Why does everything bad have to happen to me?" I whisper to myself.

"I don't think you life is all bad," Jack answered softly.

"What?"

"You do have some good in your life".

"Like what?"

"For starters you had Joe since you were really young. You are healthy and living. You have Katherine and David who would give up their right arm and leg for you. And most importantly, you have me."

I looked up at him. His blue eyes twinkled.

"And I'm not planning on giving up on you."

I smiled. Jack pulled me into his arms without another word.

After a long comfortable silence Jack spoke up, "Don't worry. Everything will be okay. I promise."

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Wow long chapter :O

Two chapters in one day? Lucky ducks :P

No school today and no school tomorrow so I'll probably post again.

Buuttt... I finally I got to a good part that I've been wanting to get to for a while! :P

Alreet, more coming soon!

Stay Stunned!