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59. disgusting

"It's best to not fight them, they will get what they want in the end" Saint says looking up at me as I scan the room carefully trying to plan my next move or an escape plan

"Thanks but this isn't my first rodeo" I say hardly listening

"You didn't all come" he says in an observation

"Some of us where smarter" I say feeling guilt as I can only imagine how Jesse and Malek are taking it.

"How did Violet get out?" I say confused

"Gained trust and used it against them in the testing facility" he says shifting his gaze from me to the guard then back to me

"I should've told Sam" I say under my breath as I shake my head. He could've came out to the public about our stories if it went wrong. If he got it out his publicity could've protected him, he could've told my parents at least that I'm alive.

"Whose Sam?" Saint says before scooping the last serving of food onto the spoon

"Doesn't matter" I say eating it. He doesn't ask any further questions.

The guard steps towards me before gripping my vest as he drags me across the room and throws me down into my padded cell.

"I gets easier" I hear Iris say through the wall after a moment

"What?" I say confused

"Accepting it" she says after a moment and I feel sick.

"When do I get to see Aaron and the others?" I ask changing the subject as I move across the room closer to the wall

"They will give you socializing time every day with them for one meal in the facility for your mental health" she says after a moment

"Because that seems like a priority for them" I say rolling my eyes

"They can't test you if they can't make you care about your own survival" she says and it makes sense I GUESS

"Who's saint?" I say resting my head against the wall

"He's a sweet boy" she says softly

"I am going to go crazy in here" I say softly

"It doesn't take long" she says and I feel the tears roll off my cheeks as defeat already starts to set in.

•

I wake to someone opening my door as the lights in the cell flick on. I squint as I open my eyes as a man crosses the room covered in gear.

I try to back away from him but he grips my vest, pulling me to my feet before dragging me out into the hallway where Iris is standing?

"What's happening" I say confused as he pushes me towards her. She's beautiful, with longer curly hair.

"Showers" she says with a clearly upset face.

I watch as a different guard across the hall opens another room before pulling Willow out and standing her next to me as she's also in a straight jacket.

"Ivy" she says as she starts crying, standing next to me

"I know" I say as tears form in my eyes

I watch as Violet gets pulled out next followed by Holly. We all start crying as we reunite in straight jackets in the middle of the plain white hallway filled with guards.

"Move" The guard says tilting his head to the side motioning for us to move down the hall

We walk together as a guard holds open the big metal door on the end with a grin

We file in to find a completely open room with 6 different shower heads against the far wall.

"They aren't going to watch?" Willow says watching the gaurds as they start to remove our straight jackets

I look to Iris but her face tells me what I don't want to hear.

"No" Holly says starting to panic as she moves away from the guard who grips her jacket and backhands her in the face as we all flinch

"Do what they say, we can be in and out" Iris says and I feel physically ill.

The guard who backhanded me at dinner grabs my vest before untying me and pulling it off me leaving me in a plane white shirt and sweats without a drawstring. They changed me before putting me in the vest? I could throw up

"Strip" the guard says standing back with a grin as he grips his electric baton and holds it out infront of him firmly.

I watch as Iris pulls off her shirt leaving herself exposed and I could throw up I'm so disgusted by all these men watching us. This is disgusting there's no other way to put it.

"Do it" Iris says pulling off her sweats and underwear before throwing them into what appears to be a laundry bin before stepping under the water.

Violets next as she goes for the next open shower.

I watch in horror as Willow shakes beside me before pulling off her shirt. Shit.

"This is disgusting" I say turning to Iris

"Yes" she says without turning to me

I follow behind Holly slowly as we step under the shower. I hear them laughing and making comments from behind us in Russian but I refuse to look at any of them. I feel as I break out crying when I realize Willow and Holly are also crying and it makes me feel less alone. I look to Iris and Violet but they look defeated? They show no emotion.

Iris then steps out from the shower and walks to a towel before quickly drying off and changing into new clothes.

We all rush through the process quickly following her lead. I realize I have to get my new clothes from the same guard that slapped me and my stomach twists.

I step towards him as he grins making a comment to the guard beside him. Tears stream down my face as I reach out to grab my clothes but he pulls them away.

He says something in Russian and the man beside him laughs as they both eyeball me intensely

"He wants you to spin" Iris says looking at me clearly very upset as she watches them in disgust

I cry as I turn around quickly before reaching for my clothes, this time he lets me take them. I quickly change now feeling more violated then I have in my entire life.

Violet wasn't exaggerating in the slightest how bad it was here, she might have even underplayed it.

The man then stands from leaning against the wall before pulling out something from behind his back before grabbing my arm

I go to pull away instinctively and he quickly grips my neck tightly with his free arm yelling at me something in Russian.

"They're cuffs, it's fine Ivy" Iris says as the other girls flinch back away from me as he gets angry.

"Okay" I say softly and he slowly softens his grip on my neck before gripping my wrists tightly as he pulls me closer to him, strapping padded cuffs to my wrists.

The other guards cuff Holly, Violet and Willows wrists aswell

"Move" the other guard from before shouts as we start walking out of the shower room.

The guard grips my cuffs before throwing me back into my padded cell and closes the door. I watch out the window and Willow, Violet and Holly are thrown into the rooms across the hall.

"They lose interest after a while and stop playing games" Iris says through the wall as i fall to my knees against the door still crying

"I shouldn't be here" I cry and she doesn't respond.