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47. before

  "did you go to prison?" I say softly and he tenses under me, his jaw clenches.

  "What did she tell you?" He asks me calmly after a long silent pause, still looking up at the ceiling

  "Nothing just that something happened and you went" I say softly unsure if I want to know now

  "I wasn't a good person back then" he says as I watch him carefully

  "What happened?" I ask confused

  "My parents.." he starts before pausing, thinking his words out before saying them

  "My father had and affair and they split when I was young" he says and I stay quiet feeling as his heart rate increases under me

  "He took me from her leaving her with nothing" he says anger clear in his voice. "Nothing" he repeats and my heart starts to ache for him.

  "I lived with him tell I was 9, until I started acting out" he says pain in his voice

   "He sent me back to my mother who was sick, she was in low income housing, selling drugs out of the house" he says now just angry "Ive seen-"

  "He had money Ivy, lots and he left her like that" he says and I can feel him pull me closer into him

  "I started getting in trouble hoping he would notice us" he says and my heart breaks for him "I was so angry back then"

  He's never told me so much, I never knew he ever struggled with anything he hides it all too well, never talking about his life.

  "I was in prison on multiple charges when they pulled me out and brought me to the testing centre"

"What charges" I say regretting the words as they came out of my mouth. He looks down at me and carefully reads my face, making sure he hasn't already scared me. I watch as he swallows hard before looking back up at the ceiling unable to look me in the eyes as he says it.

"Drugs, assault, unlawful use of a fire arm, breaking and entering" he starts, saying each charge slowly. "Arson" he ads with the slightest hint of a grin but it quickly goes away

"I don't like that person Ivy" he says. "I'm not that person"

"I know" I say softly

"I don't want you to be scared of me, it's why I don't talk about it" he says and I nod, running my thumb back and forth as I rest my hand against his chest letting him know he hasn't scared me

"I have problems with control down to everything I do. I need.." he says trailing off, thinking his words out carefully. "I never had control of my life growing up" he says and It starts to make sense why he would defy Dr Martin so much and why he takes charge so often.

"Thank you" I say softly. This is the most He's ever talked about himself since I met him.

He just runs his fingers back and forth against my skin.

"Go to sleep" he says after a moment of silence

I drop the questions, thankful he shared as much as he has before resting my head against his chest. I realize now that nothing he says about his past could scare me, I think I'm falling for him.

Hard.

•

I wake to Malek pulling me into him as he digs his face into my back.

A smile creeps on my face as I reach up and run my hand through his hair as he kisses my shoulder

"You scared of me yet" he mumbles and I flip over onto my back looking up at him.

"No" I say softly resting my hand against his face running my thumb against his lips as he does to me all the time

He then opens his mouth as I rest my thumb against his bottom teeth. He then bites down playfully grinning as I pull my thumb back.

I feel him against me and I grin as I reach down and grab him

He watches me carefully before reaching down pulling my hand off him?

"Why do you not like when I touch you" I say looking up at him confused

"I told you" he says sliding his hand down onto my stomach as he playfully traces circles on my skin. Control issues for this too?

"You just like making me squirm" I say and he grins.

"Exactly" he says kissing me as he slides his hand under the blankets as he begins playing with me

"Please don't stop this time" I says resting my hand against his wrist as he already has my hips arching under him

He slides his other hand under my neck and holds my head against his chest as he slides his fingers into me while still stimulating my clit with his thumb

I grip the blankets pulling them up as I let out a moan into his chest as he speeds up, rubbing circles into my g-spot.

"dont stop" I beg into his chest as I arch my back gripping his arm tightly as I squirm under him.

I reach down and grab him as he's now rock hard.

I start to stroke him and he laughs to himself.

"Your insatiable" he mumbles letting out a moan as I stroke him, letting me.

Suddenly there is a knock at the door and my heart starts racing but Malek doesn't stop, instead he speeds up. Of course the one time I tell him not to stop and he listens

"Busy" I moan out. "Busy" I say this time louder and Malek laughs quietly keeping pace making me squirm

"GET THE FUCK OUT" Malek yells as the door starts to open and I grip his arm tightly, arching my neck back into the pillow as he starts to kiss my exposed neck. The door shuts again as he continues faster as I can hear I'm so wet I start to make sounds and he grins.

"Cum" he says holding my head firmly against his chest as I grip at his arms and the blankets.

I arch my back and neck letting out a deep moan as it takes over my entire body making me squirm uncontrollably against him.

He rapidly keeps pace when I grip his hand stopping him because I can't take anymore. He quickly move his hand from inside me as I feel him start stroking himself as he moans

I quickly grip him taking over as I'm still squirming. He laughs at my persistence

"Fuck" he groans gripping my hair arching my head up to him as a smile grows on my face

Not too long after I feel him as he cums onto his stomach and let's out a deep moan making me happy

I turn back to him sitting up as I look down at him while he grins up at me.

"I hope pretty boy heard you" he says grinning and my jaw drops

"Asshole" I say before crawling off the bed leaving him to his own mess

  "I'm gunna have to start tying you up again" he says watching me as I start changing making me laugh

  "I like when you're gentle" I say with a grin

  "No you don't" he laughs shaking his head in amusement