Don't leave me (Jungkook)

2.12 Distance

"You should not care about that, you are nothing to me" I say in a trembling voice and move on.

"You do not understand the pain I have been carrying all these years," he says as he stands in the same place. The words he said lit flames in me, he has no right to say that. I am the one who has been hurt the most! «YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND AS I DO! I was the one who is broken and you ruined my whole life!" I say as i grab his shirt.

"Y/n, let's talk about it," he says in a calmer voice and takes my hand. "No, you have no right to say you are crushed, all these years I have been waiting for you, did you know!? I even told my mum daily while she was in coma that you would come back! You broke me so badly that i was starting to go crazy, I havent even recoverd! So don't start something that you, no, we will end up crushing. I hate you so baldy Jeon Jungkook» I shout out and the tears flow down for every word i say.

I will never see him again, he did not understand then and he does not understand now.

Do you want to distance yourself? Remain forgotten by me? ” again, he will not let me go, holding on to me and creating great wounds. "I told you a long time ago that you should forget me, i will distance myself because I know you will not forget me. so distance yourself form me, please."

It hurt to ask him to distance himself, it hurt to hear him say that he feels severe pain, but that is the best thing for us. We were never together so it's not a breakup.

«Y/n? I came to look for you, you did not come-" He came to find me, so kind. But the only thing he sees of me are dried tears and more to come.

"Y / n, let's drop the makeup, come with me" he says and takes my hand. I do not want to look behind, but I do, Jungkook disappeared without a sound. He did not stand behind me and he did not come after me.

"Why dose so many people drag me into a room?" I ask him with a fake smile. I do not want anyone to know that I had a strong past with Jungkook. It would look so bad on him, it's worse if they find out who I am and that I got a broken heart from him.

There are fans who support him and protect him, but at the same time there are haters who will go after him and hurt him. I do not want him to be completely destroyed by his past, that might ruin his dreams that he worked so hard for.

"It's my first time, but I'm not interfering in other people's lives. But it seems okay to ask you, since I saw you cry." How should I answer Jimin? I can not say it is because Jungkook is an idiot and I am a bigger one who fell for him.

"No, it's just news from the doctor that got me a little depressed" i answer him fast and he looks down, kind of sensitive. i think he wont ask anything more because its a sensitive topic. I'm glad he's asking even if he's not like that with others, but it creates too much chaos to interfere in my life.