Don't leave me (Jungkook)

4.3 Worst Parents

Mom: whatever you have on your heart, tell it to me now

Y/n: The doctor gave me a rapport, and there it stood that you couldn’t give birth to anyone

Mom: It’s true. I won't deny that the medical accord was false. But me not being able to give birth was the main reason why your father got drunk

Y/n: Then how did I come to the world?

Mom: You know that we had an arranged marriage. Your father was wealthy and stable until he found out that he could never have kids with me. It broke him since he truly loved kids.

Mom: He started drinking without a stop, and he became unstable. He gave up his work for one of his friends and told me that the money I made was enough to make a living for the two of us

Y/n: I don’t understand how I am connected to this story

Mom: You came unexpectedly, and we were low on money. Instead of taking care of me, he was worrying himself that he wouldn’t be a good father

Y/n: He should worry about that! He was and never will be a good father to me.

Mom: don’t speak so ill about him! He tried his best to change himself and be a better man for all of us. But he just couldn’t and choose to walk away without harming us

Y/n: Him walking out is what caused so much pain and fear

Mom: You can't say he didn’t try to hold his life together

Y/n: his life was ruined a while ago, the second he took the alcohols way

Mom: No, he had his reasons to drink. My family placed a lot of pressure on him when they knew I was pregnant. He used to drink and cry out his pain in front of me *water filled up her eyes*

Y/n: Why didn’t your family help you guys with the economy?

Mom: they were ashamed when you were born. I didn’t go home once during my pregnancy, and they assumed that your father cheated and brought a stranger’s daughter to our home.

Mom: I tried to explain it to them, but your father was so unstable that I had to look after him

Y/n: What happened after that?

Mom: He said that it would be better if he left us so that my family could take us in. You rarely saw your father when you were younger because he was trying to find a job.

Mom: I am sorry we couldn’t be the most excellent parents for you, and I have one more thing to say

Y/n: Go on… *sighs and looks away*

Mom: You can hate your father for leaving but not for trying.

Mom: He used five years of his life hoping and working to find a better solution for all of us. He loved you with his whole heart

Y/n: how am I supposed to believe that when he left before I could even say bye?

Mom: I don’t expect you to believe me or trust me. After all, I am the worst mother

Y/n: Don’t say that…you tried your best to make our life's stable, and now it is fine since I have a job and make money now

Mom: I missed so many essential years from your life…did you get married to the guy who proposed to you here? His name was Park Jimin, right?