Drugs NEVER ARE

Day after

The guys were downstairs cleaning the fish and already had coffee brewing.  I woke up before Jane and kissed her forehead like I normally do. I just look to see how peaceful she is. I carefully get out of bed and head to take a bath. I have my water set to the right temperature.  I take a romance book I keep here read only a few chapters each time I come here. I hear Jane get up and knocks on the door. "How did you sleep?" "Jane whenever you are near me even if I have a nightmare, I  feel safe and sleep better." "I am going to wash up and brush my teeth and the bathroom is yours all alone again." "Jane how did you sleep? I hope what I said last night doesn't make it uncomfortable for you. I really do have feelings for you for years now but never said anything. I don't want what I disclosed to you to ruin our friendship." Maura stands up and gets out of the jacuzzi. I hand her a bath towel. She wraps herself in it. She hugs me and won't let go and begins to cry softly. I wipe her tears.  "Maura I am not sure at this time, please give me time.I  promise you once Matt and Frankie  leaves, we will talk. Get dressed at meet me outside with the guys." I than kiss her forehead like I normally do when we are alone.

The guys cooked the fish. It was so perfect.  Maura cooked risotto and broccoli with parmesan cheese with a few bottles of beer. Frankie and I both noticed Matt's and Maura's conversation wasn't flowing as easy. Matt asks to speak to Maura alone. I felt bad for him. I knew if Chris wouldn't of been here last night, their relationship would of flourished.  We said our good byes. I told Maura I was going to go for a run and would be back so we could talk. I know Maura wasn't happy, but I needed time to think and figure out my decisions with Maura.
I ran for about 30 minutes and stopped.  I started to cry.  I had feelings for Maura too but not the same way at least not now. I have learned to never say never.  I stopped at a juice shop to get a large strawberry juice with two shots.  I didn't realize I was out long thinking and hadn't brought my cell with me. I was walking back to the cabin. When I  hear someone call me, I  looked up and it was Maura in my jeep waiting for me in the passenger seat. She had a worried and pissed look on her face.  I got into my jeep and drove back in silence to her cabin.  This was the longest fifteen minutes of silence that was miserable for us both. The only time we have been silent is when something is really bothering us. "Maura please don't get out yet.  I am sorry I forgot my cell. You know I do that at times and it's not intentional and it wasn't intentional this time either." "Jane let's go inside to finish this please. " I followed her inside and see that she had made a lovely dinner with candles with my favorite cake. She made me velvet cake with berry filling like I like it.  I felt like a heel. She ran upstairs and slammed the master bedroom door.  I followed her and knocked on the door.  I saw she had her bags packed. I dove on the bed to straddle her to prevent her from leaving.  I was feeling more like an ass as time went on. "Maura please listen to me. I have handled this all wrong.  I needed more time to think. I do love you but not in the manner you expressed your feelings to me. I don't want our friendship to change nor our working relationship. Please give me time.  This is all new to me. I learned never to say never.  I may change my mind. I really don't know. Maura you will always be special to me. Please don't leave.  We can leave like we had planned for tomorrow evening. Please stay with me. We can watch a movie in bed like we normally do and cuddle. " I  was getting off of Maura. Maura grabbed me and kissed me passionately and I didn't stop her and I wasn't sure why. Maura starred into my eyes and turned me. "Jane just stay on your stomach,  please don't move." I watched hee enter the bathroom and returned with some oil and towels.  "Jane I can tell your neck and shoulder is bothering you again. Please trust me and remove your t-shirt. " "Maura I have always trusted you that isn't changing."  I removed my shirt. Maura poured the oil on my back and she moved her hands up on my neck and right shoulder. " WOW, Maura that feels better.  Thank you. " "Maura unclasped my bra and started massaging my back and sides and arms. She took off my socks and shoes and massaged my feet and legs.  I didn't know she removed her top and bra. She had me turn around.  I was starring at her in her beautiful brown eyes and I could feel my breathing was getting faster and I was getting moist below.  Maura could tell my breathing was quick like hers. She continued to massage me and started kissing my neck and slightly bit me. At no time, I  didn't stop her.  I didn't know what tomorrow will be for us. I grabbed her by her waist and pulled her closer and kissed her. I bit her lower lip and slipped my tongue inside of her mouth. We kissed for awhile.  "Jane I want to make love to you. Please allow me. Tomorrow, we can go back to regular friends but now I want to be passionate with you." I nodded and  allowed her to continue.  She placed her hand in my shorts,  and moved my panties over slid one than two fingers in me. I was soaked when she removed my shorts and black panties. She stood up and I helped her out of her skirt and teal panties.  Maura was already dripping and breathing heavily. She aligned our pussys.  She raised my left leg and started rocking hard back and forth on me.  I was close to coming and my first female to female orgasm.  I grabbed the sheets and held on why Maura rode my multiple orgasms out with me. Maura licked me clean. Her tongue in me was like paradise. She knew what she was doing to get me going. Jane I am going to turn you over to be on top.  I am going to slide underneath you. I moved closer like Maura asked me to. Maura added coconut oil to my anus and rubbed me there with two fingers while her tongue was working on my clit. "Ah fuck Maura I am cuming hard. PLEASE DON'T STOP. " Jane came several times. I wasn't done. I rolled her over. I laid myself on her and rubbed myself on her buttocks. Jane raveled directly underneath me. I finally stopped for a few minutes to catch my breath and laid on her back while massaging her breasts.  "Maura I have no idea what tomorrow will hold for us but thank you. " I  turned Jane on her side and placed my one leg between her and rocked her. I was massaging her breasts. I turned Jane to be on her back.  "Jane do you trust me ? I want to try something with you. I bought it recently and brought it up here. I wasn't sure if I was going to tell you my true feelings to you this week or not." Yes, go ahead and get it." Maura returned with a strap on. Maura out coconut oil on herself and me.  " Jane I will start slow for you to get use to it.  Nod your head, signal me or tell you are ready for me to push it all the way in you." Jane nodded. I placed the dick in her a little at a time.  I bought on that was 9 inches long that had veins and looked real and the width was pretty wide. I got a rhythm going and Jane signaled me to go all the way in. Jane was tight and she was going wild.  Jane's back arched up which allowed me to push the last inch in her. Jane was screaming,  "Maura don't you dare stop." My orgasm was coming simultaneously with Jane.  We rode our orgasms out together.  Jane squirted out alot. I pulled out and started licking her clean.  I removed the strap on and tossed it on the side of the bed. "Maura no man has ever had me have three orgasms after one another or squirt. " Jane covered her face up from embarrassment. I removed Jane's hands and kissed her. That was the most beautiful compliment you could give me." Maura continued to bite on my breasts and lick me. She nibbled a little harder on my abdomen and breasts and left several dark hickeys. "Jane thank you for tonight. I  will always love you more or the same.  You set the pace and I will follow . If you choose, no give me time to adjust.  I don't want to lose our friendship nor working relationship. "  Jane got up to get us some water.  "Maura, I called Cavanaugh voice mail.  Saying you needed more time, I will use my own vacation time for a week.  I hope you are okay with this." Maura kissed me and placed herself between my legs and said "yes. I  was emailing the governor, Susie I was taking an additional week.  So we were thinking the same thing. Jane I am so in love with you and want to make love and fuck you all week if you allow me too." We drank our water and Jane held me. We nodded off to sleep.