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I move back

Joey helps Jane along with Matt and Frankie move Jane's
belongings back to her condo. Jane took some time off of work. I decided to resign and go work for the hospital in Boston. Joey and I stayed friends.  We never told anyone of that night. Joey is going to help me raise our child. I am having a boy.  We already chose his name. Anthony Michael Rizzoli. I am not giving our baby his last name.  He still will be his father.  Susie is the chief medical examiner which made the transition go smoothly. Susie doesn't know what happened.  Maura's sister, Catherine, came to my condo to talk.
"Jane I am truly sorry what Maura did.  I know she feels like crap. I hope you two will get back together one day. You brought out the best in my sister. One fucking night and she blows a good love and friendship. I had no idea my sister's jealousy streak was that bad.  Only my mom and I know. My mom was afraid if she came by you would turn her away. We know you agreed to the FANTASY because you love her.  The only good thing from that horrific night is your  baby. Rachelle, my mom and I hope we can still be part of your life. You mean the world to us. Rachelle would like to help Angela with the baby shower. We promise not to bring up Maura after Rachelle and my mom talk with you. Maura doesn't have your painting up. My mom  has it in her home. "
"Please let Hope and Rachelle to contact MA. I will let my MA know. Also, I still need to get your mom back on the range..please have your mom meet me there tomorrow morning at 8. I still on leave but return in two-weeks. Two weeks should give your mom plenty of time.  Thank you Catherine for coming by. You three mean the world to me too."

The next....
Jane meets Hope at the gun range. Hope hugs Jane.  "Hope show me your shooting stance. I will get your gun out to make sure you haven't loaded it. Your safety glasses and earmuffs are on correctly.  I show Hope how to load her 38. I see in the corner of my eye Maura. I have Hope load and unload it.. the reel is locked..Hope bring back the hammer,  firm grip and arms. Good, never take your eye off your target.  Use your other senses to make sure its your turn to shoot. " Hope is getting the hang.of it. "HOPE I have to use the restroom.  Keep your gun down on its side with the barrel facing the target. "

I see Jane leave I take my equipment with me and go to thr restroom.  "Jane I know you are in here. We need to talk..I didn't know you still had contact with my family.  I would like to apologize, my jealousy got the best of me and I fucked up that night.  I am going to be honest with you. I was scared of losing you when I saw Joey talking to you.  Initially,  I had another gal as part of the fantasy but I should of come clean.  I knew when you said please. I ALREADY LOST YOU..I WANTED HIM TO HURT YOU THAT IS WHY I SAID NO LUBE.  I FIGURED YOU WOULD SEE A CRUEL SIDE IN HIM.NO, YOU SAW A LOVING AND PASSIONATE MAN WHO STILL LOVED YOU AND DIDN'T WANT TO HURT YOU. I WAS GOING TO LET MY FANTASY NOT BE CRUEL BUT WHEN HE CALLED YOU BABE IT CAME BACK IN FULL FORCE..I  KNEW I LOST YOU.  MY END OF FANTASY WAS NOT FOR YOU TO GET PREGNANT BUT ME SO WE COULD HAVE A CHILD AS OUR OWN. I DID GET PREGNANT THAT NIGHT BUT HAD A MISCARRIAGE.  CATHERINE TOOK ME THE ER. I WANT WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU, I ALWAYS HAVE AND WILL. I WILL NEVER STOP LOVING YOU AS A FRIEND NOR A LOVER. I WILL LET YOU GET BACK TO HOPE. CONGRATS ON YOUR SON." "Maura please wait, if you would of been honest with me then that night, I  would of forgave you but you let me think you were heartless.  I will always love you too. You were my first and my last same gender love. I won't seek out another female because they won't come close to you. I am sorry for your babies loss.  I won't tell anyone because that is your story to tell. "I hugged Maura and kissed her on her forehead good bye and left after washing my hands.
Hope had someone unload her gun. She was outside of the restroom with her equipment packed except for earmuffs.  "Jane I saw Maura follow you, I didn't realize she was here . I was entering than closed the door when I realized all she wanted to do was apologize.  We can do this another time.. I am sorry for what daughter DID that night to you all . I still love you as one of mine.I  will call you in a few days to SEE about our next range time.  I will practice my stance and dry fire." Maura was still in the restroom.  I went back in and she was crunched down on the floor crying.  I sat down next to her and held out my arms. She fell in my arms. "Maura you are no shape to drive, leave your car and I ask someone to take it home for you.  I will drive you home." "Thank you,  but I took an uber. I haven't driven in awhile, I  don't trust myself because when I cry. I have taken time off from the hospital to try to get my fucked up life in order." I drove Maura home and helped her with her gear.  Maura was still crying. I set the alarm and helped her upstairs.  I went downstairs to get her some tylenol and both of us water and a banana for me. I brought it all up. I handed her the pills and water. I ate my banana  and tossed the peel in the trash. I turned on the fire place and just held her and brushed her hair with my fingers. I  kissed her forehead goodnight.  I believe I fell asleep before her.  I slept for an hour then got up to take a bath.
I woke up and realized Maura wasn't in bed. I got up and heard her in the jacuzzi.  I  was already showing at four months. Maura looked up and saw me and could tell my shoulder was hurting and low back. "Jane join me, I.promise I will behave."
Jane undressed and got in front of me like when were friends and our bodies ached. I massaged her shoulder and low back. I turned down the heat.  I didn't want the heat to harm the baby. It felt good to hold her like this again.  She fell asleep. I got up and picked her up and laid her in my bed next to supporting her back with my body and covered her up. "Maura will you something for me and not look into for nothing but what I am asking you. I don't want my.last time be like the last cruel. Please make love to me. Yes, I am sure."
Maura made me feel loved like the first time she made love to me.  She had me cum 5 times. We nodded off. I woke up at 6 and Maura was still asleep and I was horny.  I was unsure of what to do.  I had no regrets and I knew if I fucked her I wouldn't again. I felt safe with her.