ℕ𝕠𝕥 𝔾𝕒𝕪(ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕙𝕦𝕟)

Chapter 11

Something Sehun had almost quite forgetten ever since his mother died,
Sehun loved painting and drawing and he was really good at it, that's what his mother said, there were a few of his paintings which consisted of mountains or parks or just random inanimate objects he had painted out of boredom, he had tapped some of them in the empty walls of his room.

Sehun was always passionate about drawing and painting, he would tell everyone that one day he would become a famous artist but now it had only grown as a hobby, sometimes he would wonder, Why was he so fond of painting?

He could not remember, his paintings had grown empty now, it did not have a meaning, it had no life, it had no message, it just existed for the sake of existing just like himself, his paintings now held no meaning.

If only he did not mess things up that day, if only he had been obedient, maybe his life and family won't be broken as it is right now.

Flashback.

It was Sehun's tenth birthday and being the hyper kid he was, he was jumping and skipping around excited for the picnic his family had planned for him.

He wore the snickers his father had got him and the cap his brother Luhan got him, his brother Junmyeon had got him, what excited him the most was his favorite chocolate truffle cake his mother had baked specially for him, a peck on the cheek from his baby brother was enough for Sehun to be happy, unlike most kids Sehun wasn't jealous of how his youngest brother got more attention than him, he loved his baby brother very much.

When his baby brother was born, Sehun had promised to be his hero and protect him from all evil that  which his mother just laughed and ruffled his hair.

The picnic was in a lovely marsh just an hour drive away, after a lovely lunch and cutting his birthday cake,
Luhan and Junmyeon caught themselves in a game of cards while their dad took pictures while little Tae was sleeping peacefully in the van.

"Mommy let's play tag!" Sehun said and since it was his birthday his mother agreed, it was all fun and games until Sehun took a run towards the hills, he was laughing as he ran deeper and deeper into the woods unaware of how his mother's calls had grown from playful ones to worried and scared ones.

Suddenly the sky began to darken and Sehun stopped on his tracks as the clear blue sky began to fill up with dark clouds, he began to feel scared and began to look around as tears began to pool up in his eyes,
"Mom" he cried, "I'm here Sehun! Don't cry" he heard his mom call our and Sehun immediately ran towards that direction and hugged his mom,
"I'm sorry mom" he cried as he buried his face on his mother's chest,

"It's okay baby, now let's get going before everyone else worries" she said.

But it wasn't that easy because the weather just got worse and it started raining and they lost their way, Sehun began to feel tired and he lost his energy, his mom carried him up on her arms and tried her best to cover his head up with her shirt, as she herself was drenching wet, the weather just grew worse and worse and it felt like they were both getting deeper and deeper inside the woods,

Her own legs were trembling as she at least tried to seek shelter somewhere before the storm calms down,
She got under a hollow tree trunk holding Sehun tightly as she felt her head ache terribly, she wrapped her arms around her child protectively as her weak eyes slowly began to close and lose vision.

Sehun woke up to staring at a white ceiling, he was confused and looked around to find himself in an empty hospital cabin, the first thing that came to his mind when he got back to his senses was his mother, he rushed out of bed and ran out of the cabin to be met with his family all outside sitting on benches with their heads low, "Where is mom?" Sehun asked and the next thing was unexpected.

He found a pair of hands strangling him, "IT'S YOUR FAULT! IT'S YOUR FAULT SHE'S GONE! YOU MONSTER!" he heard his dad curse at him with icy red eyes as he gaked and tried to push him away, "Dad! Calm down" Junmyeon pulled him away before Sehun could die, he gasped holding a hand towards his neck, "Sehun go back inside" Junmyeon said coldly, Sehun was shocked as Junmyeon had never heard his brother talk to him in that tone.

"Where is mom?" Sehun continued to ask as his heart began to beat faster with fear, "AGH!" he heard his older brother Luhan groan before glaring up at him, Sehun was scared of his brothers of his dad it was as though he did not know who they were anymore, but he still wanted to see his mom, where was she? Was she alright?  Was she sleeping?
"SEHUN GO BACK INSIDE" Junmyeon yelled giving him the coldest glare.

Sehun busted out crying before heading inside the cabin.

He knew something had happened to his mom and he knew it was his fault....

Sehun couldn't believe his eyes as he watched the pale dead body of his mother being buried as his younger brother cried trying to be comforted by some lady, his mother was gone she was no more.

"IT'S YOUR FAULT! YOU MONSTER! IT'S YOURS FAULT SHE'S GONE! DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVED HER?"Sehun heard his dad scream and curse at him, Sehun felt empty and he felt a siren wailing in his ears, he ran, he did not know where but he ran wherever his little weak legs could carry him, he ran and ran till his legs could not carry him anymore and he had the bend down to rest, memories began to flash inside his head, I killed mom! I killed her! She's gone because of me.... Because of me... I'm a monster,I killed her... Those words chanted inside his head like a spell,

His finger nails digged into his arms and he pressed it so hard that blood actually appeared on his arm but that was the last thing he cared about, tears began to fall uncontrollably and his legs felt like jelly and like a mad child he began to pull his own hair letting out blood curdling screams.