Why? (Depressed Eren X Captain Levi)

Chapter 4

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"Secret Talent"
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**Eren**

I finished cleaning the rooms so I went ahead and leave. I wanted to go back to my cell and listen to music.

You might think that's impossible but my dad brought me this CD player thingy when he came back from one of his visit with a patient. It came with a couple of songs, there mostly all kid friendly but I was able to snatch this one disk from him, the songs called 'sick of you' kinda depressing...

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I walked into my cell and took out the CD player that I hid under my cot, Jesus.. I hate the headphones, they always get tangled.

I sat on my dirty cell floor as I untangled the headphone wires, finally! I finished untangling the wire and so I put the headphones on my head, turning on the CD player.

I laidback my head on the dirty stone wall as the music was somewhat nice to listen to.

No one was around so I thought why not sing along?

—play the song from above :3—
"I've been away too long from you and I'm sorry
But I can't control just what you do
And I hope to god that you leave me soon
That you walk away from this
Burning bridge that you crossed too late
And you just forget that we ever met
But before you forget
There's just something I have to say

I'm sick of your voice
Sick of your face
Sick of your choices
Sick of your name
Sick of your pleasure
Sick of your pain
Sick of your pressure
Sick of your game"

**Levi**

I still had no idea what I was gonna do, walking around the whole damn place doesn't help.

I kept wondering until I heard a voice, the voice doesn't sound familiar.
I walked towards the voice, which lead me towards the dungeon.

Got to say, the voice...
It's nice. Who's singing?

The voice lead me toward Yeager's cell. HE CAN SING?! I peeped my head to see what he's doing, his eyes are closed and the things on his ears make it hard for him to hear.

I leaned my body on the doorway and listen to him sing, he's singing something depressing. Yeager sang as I listen to him, I'm 100 percent sure he doesn't even know I'm hear.

"Every little thing always seems to be about you

Exercise your criticism then get mad when I'm through
You think your traumas don't affect a single person 'round you

I'm not your therapist or boyfriend, try and get the two confused
I'm best friends with your new boyfriend and I'll tell him every truth
I don't care if he don't like it, I don't care if he tells you
Text me that you fuckin' hate me, well it's 'bout time that you do

Get the fuck up out my life because I'm still in love withI'm sick of your voice
Sick of your face
Sick of your choices
Sick of your name
Sick of your pleasure
Sick of your pain
Sick of your pressure
Sick of your game
Sick of your sight
Sick of your shape
Sick of your spite
I'm sick of your shade
I'm sick of your lies
Sick of your lazy
Sick of your cries
I'm sick of your crazy
I wish I never ever met you
Five years of mistakes I'll never undo"

5 Years ago was when you turned into a titan and saw his mom get eatten. Talk about hard times.

"I'm not your medicine or your tool
Don't expect me to ever fix you"

Yeager finished singing, his head still leading against the wall and his eyes still closed.

"Didn't know you can sing" I said, shocking Yeager to shoot his head up.
"T-thats cause I can't sir.." Yeager said looking away from my direction
"Believe what you wanna believe, but you can sing." I said walking out of his point of view and headed towards the stairs

Did I seriously just give that brat a complement? The fuck wrong with me.
This free time I have is getting to me.

"Tch"

**Eren**

Did Captain just complement me? Also...
HE HEARD ME SING?!! Ahhhh this is embarrassing...

Another mistake I did, we'll time to add to the list. My stupidity list is quite long, cuts, scars and blood.

That's my list, every mistake or anytime I feel low about myself, I punish myself.

Cutting, cutting is the way I punish myself. Yet I feel pleased.

I grabbed the shard of glass and rolled up my sleeve, day 3.

It been 3 days since I've started and I've created cuts, over cuts, over cuts...
Placing the broken shard of glass on my wrist once again and slice.

Crimson red blood exited the wounds I've created, the whole point in my cutting was for me to learn to control the disgusting monster that flows in me.

I'm just.. just so tired..
But I can't.. sleep.....
If I sleep I lose control, SLAP.

Ow, that woke me up. Shit it's time for training.
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Sorry it a little short but I was really excited to post that I couldn't help it :3
Also here's my posting schedule:
I post every week, 1 or 2 chapters a week!