Why? (Depressed Eren X Captain Levi)

Chapter 13

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"The Reason Why"
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**Eren**

Lost in my thoughts, not paying attention to what they were saying. My heart aches so much to think about it. Covering my face with my bangs, I don't want to look at them and I don't want them to see me.

"Eren?" I slowly brought my head up and saw Hanji crouched between my knees. She had tears in her eyes, it was obvious that she cared and was worried. "Yeah?" I questioned, Hanji took a deep breath as she creeped her arms around my back, bringing me into a hug.

My eyes widened in shock, I haven't been hugged in a long time.. I hugged back, closing my eyes to hold back the tears and to also enjoy this moment.
Hanji then pulled away from the hug, cupped my face and asked. "You ready?" She looked into my eyes, I know I'm not ready but I'll do it..

I nodded my head, Hanji then smiled as she pulled away. Captain then reached for the clipboard that was on his desk. "Now, when did you start cutting?" Captain read off one of the questions, I was pretty certain I told them beforehand when I did but I guess not. " One week and a day, I started the day when you and your squad were arguing about how dangerous I am" replied as I fiddled with my fingers, tapping each one over and over again.

I was pretty curtain Hanji was about to burst, I could feel the sad sensation coming from her. I looked up at her, giving her a reassuring smile. I hate it when people are miserable.

Captain scribbled on the clipboard, he then put the pen down and read another question.

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"Why?" was all he said. I don't understand the question..
"Uhh, I'm sorry.. I don't understand what you're suggesting.."
Captain sighed and laid the clipboard on his lap, "What was the reason you started self harming yourself?" Captain questioned.

Now understanding the question, I leaned my head back as I took a deep breath, "In everyone's eyes I'm a monster they kill to get paid, their hurtful words rubbed off on me so I started to think the same. I had no one to vent to on my problems and even If I had I wouldn't, I would have felt like a burden. My heart will ache and I will feel  nauseous. I couldn't handle all this on my own so I had to take my mental pain and turn it into a physical one. To distract me from what's really hurting me."

I felt as my eyes began to water, I shut my eyes to stop the tears from flowing.

**Levi**

Writing down Eren's answer word for word, not paying attention to his facial expression. Finally putting down the clipboard as I finished up the last sentence, Eren's eyes were closed. Small tears coming out of them, I'm not used to these type of situations so this is somewhat new to me..

Usually everyone is okay and happy but I guess not him. I mean, he's not a normal soldier you see everyday. "Eren, would you like a break?" I questioned. Again, I'm not used to this sentimental shit so giving him a break was the best I could do.

Eren looked up and thought about it, he nodded his head as he got up to leave the room. I gave Hanji and signal to look after him, she gladly did.

Hanji and Eren both left the room. I grabbed the clipboard once again, looking over Erens answers and the rest of the questions we'll have to ask him once he comes back.

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Moments later, Hanj and Eren came back, Eren's tears were now gone and was replaced with a smile from Hanji's stupid titan jokes.

Eren's mood quickly changed though, he already knew what was gonna happen next. Hanji pulled Eren's seat in front of me once again as I pulled out the clipboard.

Taking in a deep breath before starting, "When did you start feeling like you were a monster?" I questioned. Hanji gave me a weird look, that question wasn't on the clipboard but I knew that it's an important information we needed.

Eren once again fools awhile to answer, "When I was being held by the military police, they didn't allow me to do anything besides being scared for me and friends live.."

That incident occurred right around the time he found out he was a titan, he was already confused himself and being called a monster was the only frase that came to mind when processing this..

I'm not sure neither me nor Hanji can bear to hear anymore of this.

"Eren, you need to understand that the ability you have is still a mystery but that means you're a monster, you are human." I reassured him, this child's been through enough of trama. But, being in the scouts.. more will come when you see your friends and loved ones ripped to pieces in front of you.

Eren say it a few times already, I'm not sure how much he'll be able to handle if we hadn't given him his current treatment.

Hanji processed to let Eren what will happen next, let the games begin.
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