Why? (Depressed Eren X Captain Levi)

Chapter 10

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"Why Save Me?"
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**Third Person**

Eren felt a bit odd, thinking this is what it's like to be dead. Eren slowly opened his eyes as his eyes suggested to the bright white light. Eren thought that this is what it's like to be brought into the afterlife.

Eren fully opened his eyes and looked around, reality settled in. Eren started to acknowledge his surroundings. There was his captain sitting in a chair. Luckily he was fast asleep, Eren's eye began to tear up. Knowing that he wasn't successful in killing himself made him fur with anger but also guilt, guilt cause he knew he had troubled his comrades. Eren tears formed into quite sobbing, moving his heavily bandaged arm to his face. Using his hands to help quite the cries.

Levi slowly began to wake up to the muffled cries, opening his eyes to see that Eren was woken up. Levi shot out of his seat and ran towards the wounded boy. Levi eyed his body head to toe, checking for any visible pain.

Levi found no visisable pain, making to sigh in relief. Levi then looked at the boy's face, seeing the tears fall. Levi began to get worried, 'Is he in pain? Are the bandages too tight?' Levi thought of many reasons why Eren was crying.

**Levi**

I stood there with questions of why Eren was crying, all of my reasonings don't seem correct. I took a deep breath in before speaking or questioning.

I pulled away one of Eren's hands, removing it from his mouth. To my surprise I had expected him to cry like an ugly brat but the tears in his eyes made his already nice eyes look.. beautiful. wait, no. They aren't beautiful. They're just eyes.

"Eren are you okay? Are you in any pain?" I question as I help set him up.

Eren looked at me for a second and turned away, he wiped his tears with his banged forearm. Eren took a deep breath before talking. "Why..Why save me? Why am I still alive!?" Eren gripped on the bed sheets tighter as he yelled. My heart shattered yet ached in my chest, he was crying because he was still alive?

Anger ran through my body but also overwhelming sorrows for the boy, he's been treated like a monster and unwanted, this should be a natural response. I looked at the broken down boy as he trembled to hold in his tears. "Eren, you do realize doing this is also causing harm to the people around you?" Eren's body flinched, did he really not know?

"What do you mean?" Eren said, still facing the floor. 'You damn idiot!' is what I wanted to say but he's gonna overthink that.. "Eren. Hanji and I were scared of losing you" I turned my head to the side, avoiding his reaction. All I heard was a small chuckle, I quickly turned my head to Eren's direction. He went back to laying down, "Just you and Hanji?" I was quite confused on what he meant by that. "What about the rest of the team?" Oh shit...

I haven't told them yet, they're probably still asleep too.. I walked over to the seat I was in before getting up. "They don't know yet.. Your incident was too early for anyone, I had to wake up Hanji and Erwin." I chuckled as I remember how scared Erwin was when we woke him up and how he sleeps with a stuffed animal... Yeah, there are some things you don't know about a person.

"Good, they probably will think I did it for attention again." Eren cracked a small sad smile as he looked at the bed sheets that were in his tight grip. How can I help someone if they're too far to catch..?

"Umm, I'm going to get you something to eat." I said as I got up from my seat, "Don't, I'm not that hungry really.." This guy hasn't eaten in 12 hours, plus the amount of blood he lost he needs to eat.

Rubbing my temple in frustration, "Eren you haven't eaten since last night, you also lost a lot of blood so you need to eat. If you don't then you pass out and end up back here." Eren didn't say anything afterwards, he sat there thinking of an excuse.

"Eren listen, no matter how hard you try to harm or end yourself I will be there to stop you. Eren you know what I think of you?" Eren flinched as I mentioned how I thought about him. Eren cares for people's opinions way too much, he realizes too much about others.

"Let me guess. A monster. A danger to humanity. A threat. Another disgusting titan. Oh! I got it, A killer machine that will lose control!?" Eren let out as much anger as he could, this is a good first step.

Right?

"None. I think you are a soldier just like everyone, I think you are a human granted with these amazing ability to help others defeat the real disgusting creatures beyond the walls." Eren froze in complete shock, I think I might have broken the first wall.

"You..You really think that..?" Eren was lost in his words. not being able to process this. "Yes." was my answer,

Eren sat up straight, softening his grip on the bed sheets and with a smile. "What's for breakfast?" Eren's words were quite shocking to me, seeing how a few words can take such a tol. Just a few moments ago, all Eren could think about is dying and leaving this world behind. Now, he's asking for food and looking so determined.

So far, so good. A small smirk appeared on my face, "How do you feel about eggs and ham?" Eren took his damn time choosing if he wanted it or not. "Yeah, that'll be good!"

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